Heal my Heart

Chapter 2 - The Accident

When Grizz woke up he was at the hospital.

«Geez, not again...» he told himself.

During his short life, Grizz had had his fair chair of hospital rooms, deadly smells and the awfull taste of meds. But when he tried to straighten himself up in a seated position, he winced in pain.

"What the..."

Taking in his surroundings, suddenly everything that happend the night before came in a rush in his mind. The birthday party, the fight with his drunk dad, his mother's sadness and the...

"Oh my god... Mum !"

Despite the terrible pain he was in, he tried to get up only to collapse on the floor. Completely awake now and with wide panicked eyes, he understood fast that he was badly injured. But he didn't care, he had to get to his mother, had to know she was fine. Crawling to the door, he began hyperventiling as a panic attack sized him forcefully.

«Is she okay? Was she hurt? What if she's badly injured like me? What happend? Where is she? Where is dad? Is she in the hospital? I have to find her, tell her I'm fine. She must be worried sick by now. I HAVE TO FIND HER!» he whispered frantically.

All of a sudden, the door bursted open and in came a nurse with a wild look on her face.

"Oh my god, what are you doing on the floor like that? Are you ok ?!" she said kneeling down at the injured kid.

Taking in the state of the panicking eight years old, she tried to calm him the best she could.

"Okay, everything is gonna be fine, just try to breathe with me on four. Breathe in, one, two, three, four... And now breathe out, one, two, three, four... That's it, you're fine, everything is gonna be fine." she reassured the sobbing child.

Grizz started calming down and tears began to roll down his now red cheeks. The nurse helped him on his feet, trying to get him to lie down.

"No, I'm not going back on my bed, I need to see my mother, she was with me on the car. Where is she? Is she okay? What happend?"

"Well, I'll explain everything once you settle down, you're badly injured and you're heart is barely keeping up thanks to the meds but first I need you to calm down and listen to me, alright?" said the nurse.

"No! I need to see her now! She must be so worried, I have to go to her cause..."

"Please stop ! You can't see her right now, neither of you are in any state to do anything at the moment so please just stand down and let me explain..."

Grizz felt then a wave of depressed and sad feelings coming from her. He didn't want to worry her so much and she said she would explain everything to him so he limped to his bed and tried to lie down. He felt a sharp pain at his side and his right leg and began to take in his own state. He looked terrible. Every part of his body hurt and he could barely take all this pain without fainting, but he had to stay awake; he had to know what the hell happend.

The nurse sat down near his bed, trying to get herself together, dreading the kid's reaction to what she was about to tell him. After a few minutes in heavy silence, she was the first to speak up.

"Listen kid... I have some bad news. Two days ago, you and your mum got involved in a car accident. She didn't do anything wrong but a truck kind of rushed right into your car and crashed into you. The driver was drunk and didn't even try to slow down, that's why he crashed into your car so badly... the truck driver was just a bit scratched but your mother, well..."

"What about her...? " asked Grizz, fear in his innocent eyes.

"... I'm so sorry, but she didn't survive..."

After that statement, nobody talked again for a few minutes. The nurse held her head up to Grizz, fearing a violent reaction, but what she saw sent shivers down her spine. The young boy didn't have any expression on his features. His face was totally blank, as if he was dead. In a deep shock state, Grizz couldn't think, couldn't feel anything. He just stared into nothing as if any life he had in him had just disappeard the moment the nurse said his mother was dead.

He didn't understand. Couldn't understand what she had just said. His mother was... dead ? No that's not possible. He was laughing with her, singing with her just a moment ago... wait. Two days since the accident? Just how long had he been unconscious? He couldn't care less right now. He had to go see his mother, let her know he's fine and be sure she's safe.

Grizz got out of bed, his blank and pale face still lifeless. This time he didn't collapse on the floor, he didn't care if he was in pain, he had to get to her. He heard the nurse calling his name in the background but he limped to the hallway. Holding himself on the walls, Grizz walked a few meters on shaky legs and suddenly stumbled upon his father.

Lifting his head up, he faintly called out to his old man.

"Dad..."

"You killed her. She died because you, you monster ! " he yelled.

Grizz's heart was bumping through his chest as his vision blurred and he collapsed on the ground. He heard people rushing towards him, his father screaming at him, nurses yelling.

She's dead...