Heal my Heart

Chapter 50 - Reconnecting

"Hey there, is it still okay to talk tonight? :)" Sam read on his phone's screen.

"Great, a text from Grizz now... What should I do...? Well, I should just ignore him while I figure out what to tell him." Sam thought to himself.

But the phone rang again in his hands.

"I'm sorry for talking to Allie first earlier, it wasn't fair to you... :(" Grizz sent him.

Sam read the text and felt his heart sinking into his chest.

"Gosh, what am I doing right now...? Ignoring his texts when he's trying to make things right between us... That's so unfair for him. If nothing he deserves the truth." he thought.

"Hey, yeah we can talk tonight if you want. Your place or mine?" Sam wrote.

A few seconds later his phone buzzed once again.

"I'm glad you still wanna talk to me tonight :))) I don't want to invade your space or anything, we can speak at my place if you're up to it" Grizz sent.

"Okay then, your place it is. Let me grab my shoes and I'll be there in a few. See ya" Sam wrote with a little smile at the thought of meeting with Grizz again.

"Great! I'll be waiting for you then ! See you !"

Sam was quietly walking towards Grizz's house but his mind was going crazy. He couldn't stop thinking of all the possible outcome of this situation and very few were happy endings for both of them.

"Oh my God, what if I tell him the truth and he doesn't want to get back with me anymore...?! What if he rejects me...? Well, I fucking cheated on him, he would have all the rights to throw me out... But...We were kinda "on a break", right...? No, that's nonsense, Sam! If you were on a "break" you wouldn't be walking to his house to beg him to take you back... What am I gonna do if he breaks up with me?! Well I was the one breaking up with him in the first place. Sort of..."

He was so trapped into his own thoughts that he didn't even realize he was now standing in front of Grizz's house's door. Grizz had seen him through the window and had been waiting for him to ring but he just stood there in front of his door so he decided to come greet him himself.

"Hey Sam, are you okay?" he signed slowly.

His sudden appearance took Sam out of his stuppor and the red hair was suddenly very embarassed.

"Oh, hum, hey Grizz! I didn't expect you!" Sam laughed nervously.

"Well, this is my house..." he laughed shyly. Little dimples showed on his cheeks.

"Gosh, he's so cute...!" Sam thought to himself.

"Well, may I come in?" he asked politely.

"Yes, of course!" Grizz moved out of the way.

They awkwardly walked to the restroom.

"Hum, do you want to go up to my bedroom? It's just that now that they changed this place into a clinic, I don't really feel at ease in this "waiting room". If you don't mind of course." Grizz asked timidly.

It was so obvious that Grizz was trying his best to put Sam in the best mood he could and not to upset him that Sam felt even worst about what had happened with Nathan earlier. He now saw how different they were on everything and how much Grizz cared about him compared to Nathan. Once he began thinking about all that again, he felt lost. He couldn't calm his raging heart and everything was just so complicated in his mind...!