Heal my Heart

Chapter 20 - The Argument

Six month later, Grizz couldn't have been happier. He was now completely out with Sam and people - except for Campbell and Harry - were very caring towards them. In fact, it seemed almost everyone had already understood beforehand because of how they were acting towards each other. Sam was the perfect angel of his life. He never had expected him before in his life but it already felt as if they had been together for an eternity.

Even though he had nightmares about Dewey or his father almost every night, he never had another depressed episode. Sam was still very worried about his health, especially his heart, which made him extra careful. They now gave dance classes together, two times a week, but Grizz didn't really dance at all. He had largely reduced his use of heart medication cause it wouldn't last forever and was now forbidden from any physically tiring activities; dance included. He didn't really mind, he loved to teach classes and would always have Sam to dance for the both of them. The whole dance class was preparing for a Thanksgiving show at the church and had though doubled practice.

One night, Grizz had one of his recurrent nightmares.

This time, he was locked in the car with Logan dangerously leaning over him. He panicked as he felt the water filling the car very quickly. At the moment, Logan was the least of his worries, he would die if he didn't find a way out. Indeed, the car soon filled up completely and he began to suffocate. Desperately searching for breathable air, all his thought went to one person. "Sam..."

He suddenly woke up, screaming and choking. Sam immediately woke up too, completely focused on his panicked boyfriend. This had happened too many times in the last six month and he was more and more thinking about asking Kelly for some sleeping medication. When he had talked with Grizz about it, he had answered that sleep medicine was dangerous for him, slowing down his heartbeat too much for his weak organ. Sam didn't push the matter, but there had to be a way to make Grizz sleep better at night...

"Grizz? It's okay, love, I'm here. You're fine, it was a dream, just a terrible dream. You're here with me now, you're safe..." he gently whispered, rocking their bodies to a relaxing pace.

It took Grizz a few minutes to calm down.

"Sam, I'm so sorry I always wake you up like that in the middle of the night..." he apologized.

"It's okay, it's not your fault. I'm sorry I can't do anything to make it better though..."

"You're here when I wake up, it's more than enough." he said softly, smiling sadly at his deaf boyfriend.

"What time is it?" he went on. "I don't think I'll be able to go back to sleep anytime soon."

"It's 5 am, Grizz. Just rest a bit more..."

"No, it's okay, you sleep. There's no reason for the both of us to be exhausted today. It's fine, I'll just get changed and head to the hospital, I have to get my new medication."

"New medication ? Are you already out of the old one?" Sam asked, a bit worried.

"No, no. It's just that Kelly changed my dose for the Thanksgiving show so I have to go fetch some more."

"She what ?! Grizz, we talked about this, you can't take this kind of risk."

"Come on, honey, I'll be just fine. Remember I used to be part of the football team, right? I wanna dance with you guys, I wanna be there with you, on the stage, and be proud of our dancers."

"Grizz, it's not worth it. You can already be proud of them, they did a great job. But I can't let you risk your health just to be able to dance with a bunch of idiots." he said, shaking his head.