Heal my Heart

Chapter 11 - Awaking

Dark... it's dark... Am I gonna die here? Well... at least I won't have to suffer anymore...Maybe he was right. Maybe it was worth it.

But a small withering warm light began to pierce through the dark and to shine so brightly that it was hard for Grizz to take his eyes off it. It was so small and fragile at first but the more he stared at it, the brighter it shone.

What's this...? It's so beautiful...but so far... as he continued to fix it, the dark suddenly came back even stronger than before. Well...as beautiful as it is, I don't deserve it. I'm tainted, disgusting. It's too much for me, I can't reach it, I'm not strong enough. If only I wasn't so alone...

Wait.

Gently, bits of soft warm and friendly features came into his mind. Luke... I have Luke...and the guys... and Sam...

The before weakening warm light started to grow bigger again, chasing the darkness away.

I'm not alone...I'm not. I remember now...I...I wanna live. I wanna live !

Grizz's eyes shot open and he tried to take a huge breathe, as if suffocating before. There was so much noise, much more than he could take at the moment. He tried to put his hands on his ears, to chase the noise aways, but he felt so weak. He began to take in his surroundings, he was in some sort of car...with lots of complicated stuff hanging on the sides. The few people in the car with him were working fast and had worried expressions on their face.

"Wh...Where a...m I...?" whispered Grizz faintly.

"Judith ! The boy's waking up ! Hello there, my name's Barbara and I'm here to take you to the hospital, you were involved in a car accident. You're in an ambulance right now, I know it's loud but you'll have to bear with it for now..."

"Wha...What...?" but as the word left his lips, everything came back to him. "My...my dad...Is he okay?!" he asked.

"Well, he's taken care of by another unit, right now I want you to focus on your breathing. I need you to answer a few questions if you can." Barbara asked.

"O...okay."

"What's your name, kid?"

"Grizz. I mean...Gareth, Gareth...Visser."

"Do you have any allergy or a current medical treatment, Grizz? Anything I should know?"

"Heart con...dition..." he whispered, seeing dark circles clouding his vision. Everything was suddenly wavering and he couldn't understand what the nurse was telling him anymore.

"Grizz? Grizz! Stay with me, kid. Just listen to my voice, don't sleep. Don't sleep Grizz."

"I..I'm sorry..." he mumbled, before giving in.

Next time Grizz regained consciousness, he had a weird impression of deja-vu. But this time, he wasn't as confused as he had been after his and Ellen's car accident. He recalled everything and the first thing he thought was "How the hell am I still alive?". He remembered clearly finding no way out and the water filling the large car really fast.

The same nurse that had taken care of him after his previous car accident came in and smiled gently at him.

"I'm so glad, you're awake, Grizz..."

"Huh...thanks...?"

"Elizabeth. But you can call me Lizzie." she said, smiling.

"Thanks, Lizzie. What happened?" he asked. This time, for once at the hospital, he felt really awake and completely focused. His father had fucking tried to commit suicide and kill him in the process, he needed to be focused right now.