Heal my Heart

Chapter 37 - Hear me

WARNING Sexual content later in this chapter.

"You heard...me?" Grizz shockingly asked his boyfriend.

Sam had suddenly started to cry at the end of the song, completely surprising him. When he had tried to understand the cause of this reaction, the deaf boy had sobbed that he had "heard" his voice.

"You mean, you sensed me and all in your heart or did you actually hear me?" he questioned him gently.

"No, it was you, Grizz. It was your voice. It was a sound, a real new sound." he smiled to him.

After the shocking outburst, Sam couldn't stop smiling. He had heard. After so many years passed in complete oppressive silence, he had heard. Even though he couldn't anymore and even if it was a one time thing, he couldn't be more grateful.

"Wha...How did that happen?" Grizz smiled back at his boyfriend.

"I don't know, you were singing and suddenly I started hearing little bits of sounds that matched your lips. They became louder and louder and I now am perfectly sure that I heard your voice."

"I'm so happy for you, love. I'm so proud of you!" Grizz giggled, kissing Sam.

"Thanks honey!" he laughed with him.

After all these emotions, the couple had one of the best night they ever had. They laughed all evening, spoke about a bright imaginary future and cuddled in bed but when it was time to sleep, Sam was completely awake.

"Grizz? Are you tired, love?"

"A bit, but I'm fine for now, why?" he turned to his loving boyfriend smiling.

Sam didn't give any other explanation and sealed his lips on his mouth. This kiss wasn't the usual goodnight one and Grizz knew exactly what it meant. Sam wanted to make love to him. He stopped him immediately, grabbing his shoulders softly.

"Wha...Wait, Sam."

"What is it? Don't you want to?" he asked him worriedly.

"It's not that I don't want to, love. It's just...We had a wonderful evening and I'm not sure I'll be able to go all the way...I don't want to mess everything up now..." he signed, looking down.

"Honey, look at me. It's fine. We don't have to go all the way if you don't want to or if you're not ready, no pressure. We had a wonderful evening and to make love to my amazing boyfriend will only make it even more marvelous. You're my lover and I want to make you feel good." he smiled warmly to him.

"I want to make you feel good too." Grizz whispered shyly.

"Then, come here." he signed with a perverted look.

He grabbed Grizz by the hips and positioned himself on top of him. The deaf boy gently trailed a kissing path down Grizz's now bare chest. Taking all the time his traumatized boyfriend would need to feel at ease, Sam slowly made his way down to his belly button. When he arrived on top of it he suddenly blew loudly in it, making Grizz explode in laughter. The deaf boy tickled him for another whole minute, leaving him laughing breathlessly on the bed.

"See? Relax, hun. I want to make you feel good, not make your heart explode from anxiety." he warmly smiled to Grizz.

"Sex isn't something that has to be so serious and grave. I understand your apprehension, but try to see the fun and bright side of it. We're together, loving each other and having a good time. I know that you never experienced this side of sexuality, but believe me when I tell you that sex can be really amusing." he giggled, still tickling him.