Heal my Heart

Chapter 26 - Revelations

"How did it go?" Becca asked eagerly.

"Well..." Sam mumbled.

"Is he a good catch? Oh my God, did he do you or did you do him?" she laughed.

"Becca. We didn't do anything. Well, we sort of did things but we couldn't go all the way..."

"Why? Ok, I know you're his first but..."

"He freaked out. I went too far, too fast and ended up hurting him."

"Oh, so you did go all the way." she winked at him.

"No, no we didn't." He hadn't thought about the fact that she didn't know everything his father had put his boyfriend through.

"But..."

"Look, you don't know everything...Logan didn't just hit him when he was younger."

"What do you mean...? Oh my God, are you saying what I think you're saying?" she answered with wide shocked eyes.

"Yeah, that's exactly what I mean. I was an asshole and I went too far...I was so envious, I didn't think about what he was feeling...I'm really the worst boyfriend ever."

"No, you're not. It's fine, Sam."

"It's not fine, Becca. You weren't there, you didn't see how frightened he was...He kinda broke down, thinking I was his father trying to hurt him..."

"Sam, I'm so sorry."

"I don't know what to do though...He obviously wanted to do it as much as I did but I'm not gonna risk hurting him again like that."

"Take it slow. I think you should maybe discuss it with him and next time, be extra aware of his feelings." she tried to cheer him up.

"Yeah..."

During this time, a pained pure violin sound could be heard coming from an uninhabited house.

"Could recognize this sound among thousands." Luke softly said, entering his best friends childhood home.

"Hey Luke." Grizz said, putting his old violin down.

"It's been so long since I've been in your house."

"Yeah, me too."

"What's wrong, Grizz? Every time I hear you play the violin like that, something bad happened."

"Nothing..." he tried to hide his sad eyes.

"Come on, dude, I know you. You coming here, playing all alone, something's definitely wrong."

"I'm fine."

"Is it your heart? Or maybe something happened with Sam?"

"Well..." He didn't really know if he should confide in his best friend. He had never told him about what his father really did to him and wasn't sure he wanted him to know.

"Grizz, I'm here for you, man. You know that. Whatever happened, I'm never gonna judge or resent you. Just tell me." he gently patted his fluffy hair.

"...Last night, Sam and I we...you know."

"Oh...It wasn't great? I thought you had already done it with him already."

"No, it was the first time. It was great though, but..."