Till the End|MCU|3

five

   I glance around knowing exactly where I'm at.  I've been coming to this place for the last two weeks, every time I close my eyes. 

   I'm on the field overlooking the ocean.  In front of me stands Sigyn.  Her hair no longer in a braid, loosely blowing in her face by the wind.

   "I want to be with Loki!"  She hisses at me.  I shake my head, knowing where this conversation is going.  She's going to demand to be with Loki, I'm going to say no.  She will try to convince me to kill myself, I will continue to say no.  She will threaten to do it herself, and then I will wake up.

   It has been the same routine for the last two weeks.

   "Kidara, you are not needed here anymore.  All your friends and family are in Valhalla."  Sigyn says gesturing out into the open air.  She looks crazy with her hair flying freely around her, she even has a crazy look in her eyes.  "All you have to do is end this and we can both be with the ones we love."

   "Oh shit!  Hey Kid, it's time to wake up."  The voice of Rocket calls out urgently in the distance, the feeling of his paws lightly shaking my shoulder.

   "No," I say as I continue to shake my head.  "Sigyn, I'm not going to kill myself.  There are still people here who need me.  Steven needs me."

   "Rocket, leave her alone.  She needs to sleep."  The voice of Captain Rogers calls out.  The feeling of Rocket's paws shaking me stops suddenly.

   "If you won't do it, then I will."  Sigyn hisses as she raises her hand in my direction.  My body freezes.  This is usually the part where I wake up.  But nothing is happening. 

   Suddenly my hand rises, mimicking Sigyn's position.

   "Um... Kidara, are you okay?"  The cautious voice of Captain Rogers calls out.

   I watch my hand in shock as a knife appears in my palm.  I gasp, panic rising in my chest as my fingers tighten around the handle.

   I glance up at Sigyn as she lifts her arm, me mirroring her exact movements. 

   What is going on? 

   Just as suddenly as the blade appeared in my hand, Sigyn moves to jab it into my stomach.  But we're stopped by an unknown force.

   "Kidara!"  Captain Rogers' voice calls out.  I feel someone's hand try to pull the knife away while arms wrap around me from the back, keeping the hand with the knife away from my body while also trying to hold me still.  "Kidara stop!"

   I scream out in shock as my body fights against the hands trying to hold me down.  During the struggle, three long slashes appear on my wrist, blood flooding out.

   "What is going on?"  The voice of Thor calls out.  In the distance, I can hear Steven crying.  I remember, he was lying next to me on the couch before I fell asleep. 

   "The crazy lady in Kid's head is trying to kill her again!"  Rocket growls frantically.

   "I want to be with Loki!"  Sigyn screams as she lifts her left arm.  My left arm rises with hers, blood still dripping everywhere.  Now a gun appears.

   "Sigyn no."  I gasp out, watching in horror as she raises her arm to the temple of her head, me coping her.  "Please, no."

   "Kidara!"  Captain Rogers screams out in horror.

   "Sigyn, release her."  Thor's voice growls out.  The feeling of a hand wrapping around my wrist appears, trying to pull the gun away from my head.  "Release her now!"