diary of an anonymous author

bad guy

why am i always the bad guy?

maybe it's because i'm not very bright, maybe it's because i'm terrible.

i really like someone. i go into the relationship. i stop liking them.

i can't entirely wrap my brain around WHY my brain does this.

the person, let's call him.. Mike.., is a kind, funny, smart, giving human being. He is everything I could as for in a person.

and i lost my interest. i'm annoyed easily. and i...

i don't want to be the bad guy.

i love him, i love mike. but as a friend.

and i did a bad thing by dating him, i really did because i knew when we first started going out that i was never going to fall in love with him.

but he's a good person and everything i could ask for in a relationship.

but, i am not in love with him.

and i don't know what else to do.

i can't destroy him, and i know that i will, but i don't want to lead him on or hurt him. and i know that that's exactly what will happen.

so, how do i avoid hurting this amazing person?

i don't know.

maybe it's because i'm the bad guy. and i always will be.