diary of an anonymous author

a thank you letter

i wanted to write a thank you letter to adam..

as of april 11, 2020 (3 days after he broke up with me..) i'm not ready. i feel like i need to wait to fully get my feelings under control to figure out what is going on in my head and heart.

to not be hurt. so, if you're seeing this and there's not a letter, it's because i'm not ready to write one.

there will eventually be a letter here

and here it is.

dear adam,

you were everything i thought i wanted.

i had a crush on you for a year and a half. i was so excited to be with you. i was extremely hyped.

and then we dated. and it ended. and now i am writing this letter on september 8, 2020 to thank you.

thank you for showing me that i have the capability to fall in love. even though you weren't good for me. i dont even think you really liked me.. and it's okay. i forgive you for it.

i also forgive myself for wanting so badly to be with you. for ignoring everything i knew was wrong. for literally thinking "that's a red flag" and then continuing to overlook it because i wanted so BADLY to make it work.

and thank you for the shortest relationship i've ever been in.

it was a good time and i still love your family more than i would've ever been able to like you.

i don't mean that to be mean, but it's true.

thank you for showing me that i'm better.

love,

k