reader x murdoc

Chapter 16

Spicy

" explain now ." I did sternly as we eventually reached my house , 2D sat down on the couch and sighed as he began to explain " basically murdoc didn't wanna lose ya , he hired people to keep ya there ." I sat there confused .
" he 'ought that nobody payed attention to him as much as yew ." I glared in confusion ." Well that's . Creepy?" I groaned and put my head in my hands ." One minute he's cheating , leaving and screaming next he's all lovey dovey again ugh. D go grab me a vodka from the shop will you . ?" I scrambled around and found my purse .
" no , yew shouldn't keep drinkin ."
" done , I'll do something better finding murdoc ." He grabbed my wrist and I shook it off and walked out . I walked for 20 minutes before reaching the house , I simply walked in without knocking and made my way up the stairs toward Murdoc's room . He sat on his bed smoking, as I went in i took it out of his mouth and put it in mine .
" first of all you creep ." I slapped him .
" this is the last time you piss me off , I forgave you so many times and then what cheat and lock me away somewhere the fuck?" I used the cigarette before dropping it on the floor and stamping on it . " the fuck is wrong with you , sadistic prick !" He stood up to hug me, I pushed him away and his confused expression changed to an angry one ." My problem ? You overreact about everything slag ." I grabbed him by his bangs and whispered to him .
" your an obsessed creep , obsessed with me , obsessed with leaving me and obsessed with hurting me ." He chuckled and pressed his forehead onto mine ." You always come back anyway , you have nobody else ." He pinned my hands to my side against the wall , i gasped as he laughed again . I mumbled under my breath " horny prick ." He lifted my chin up quickly and placed a hand on my neck ."what my lovely ?" He pressed harder as I gasped , he hummed in reply and stopped pressing but still had a grip . "I believe your the honey prick love." He said as he pressed again on my neck I let out a quiet moan as I gasped " m-mudz." He glared harshly ." You left this time so I expect you to make it up ." I glared harshly back at him and gasped yet again .he let go and I fell onto the ground and gasped for air. He laughed to himself as I kept my head down and ignored him . " come on darling let's be good again ." I once again ignored him, he sat down infront of me and lifted my head up again , i blankly stared at him . I don't even know what I feel towards him at this point . He sighed and stood up " fine if you down want to speak , I'll be back later ." He walked out locking the door behind him . I sighed and began to blame myself for the whole thing

Maybe if I didn't know those drug dealers he wouldn't have been stressed and leave and maybe if I was nicer he wouldn't have left in the first place . What if he leaves now because I've pushed him away ?have I upset him shit , does he not love me as much anymore . Am I the one who had left him this time ?

I cried and banged on the door to get Murdoc's attention "mudz please I'm sorry , I won't leave you , I won't upset you I'm sorry ." I cried even more feeling guilty yet hating myself for thinking I caused this . I heard footsteps heading towards the room as I tried to stop crying .as he opened the door I feel infront of him still crying and repeating the word sorry . He picked me up and kissed me on the forehead as he lay me in bed . " glad your sorry luv ." He walked out and left me in there still crying and paralysed with fear , sadness , guilt and self hatred .

You slag you won't let me help you , leaving us all and always hurting me . Do you even love me anymore , or are you just gonna leave and go back to being some drug and alcohol addict

I woke up with a jolt and tears in my eyes he lay next to me fast asleep , I hesitated to get up but gently rest the covers back down as I got up and keep out of the room and down to the kitchen . "Y/n?" I turned around to see 2d I waved with a blank expression and searched the place for a drink I found a drip of whiskey left in a small bottle but before I could open it 2d took it away .
" please y/n are you ok ?" I walked over to him and hugged him and shook my head . he seemed shocked and gently placed his arms around me , before I pulled away ." I-I'm sorry he'd kill me if he saw that ." 2d nodded
" you will be ok trust me ."