chase's pov
payton agreed to facetime but addy said she couldn't because she had to sleep because she had to wake up early tomorrow. i called payton and within 3 rings he answered. he answered with a big smile "brooo" he said with a low voice. "what's up payton" i say with a smile holding up a peace sign. "dude just date her already!" payton says with his hands on his head. "addy?" i question. "yes addy who else dumbass?" he says rolling his eyes. "she doesn't even like me bro what do you mean?" i say the "n" part like there are 4 "n's" in the word. payton scoffs and giggles a little. "i see it and i ship it" i laugh at payton's comment.
only payton knows about my crush on addy. shes so gorgeous in her own way. shes cute and funny and i just love her to pieces. damn i am really falling for that girl so damn hard.
"payton i wish i didn't like her to be honest" i look down at my hands. "what do you mean?" payton squints his eyes in confusion. "its just that i really like her like a lot but i know that she doesn't like me and she doesnt deserve me because she deserves the best there is. i don't want my feelings to push her away from me. i want her to be in my life forever but..i just...i don't know pay." i explain and pour my heart out a little. "chase you have got to be blind bro. when you two talk her eyes light up and she has the biggest smile ever. even when i talk to her, your name never fails to be brought up. shoot your shot." payton explains making me soon realize everything that had come out of his mouth is true.
then i think about my reality. she can say no, she can reject me. i don't know how i can live with my heart being broken by the person i love the most. i know i love her. i need to tell her. "what if she rejects me?" i try to get payton to help me out with his helpful advice and words. "come on bro its adalyn blake we are talking about here"
payton never fails to make me feel better. i have never felt so attached to someone before. i need to tell her. should i facetime or should i tell her next time i see her?
