addy's pov
lately chase has been pretty distant. my parents are here in stockton and im staying with them. chase has been acting weird though. today i was meeting up with madi. she somehow convinced her parents to stay over here until lila is born. the others are coming late february so they can be here for early march. i also had loads of clothes for her already. i made space in my closet for her clothes. since christmas came already, my room is a mess. filled with baby stuff. my parents got a house with an extra bedroom that is in the works of being a cute little nursery.
i got ready and wore chase's hoodie with sweatpants because lets face it...im 7 months pregnant. almost full term with a human. and im really uncomfortable so i need to dresw comfy..right? madi was on her way in an uber to my house. when she came i opened the door and she ran to me but stopped and lightly hugged me. "addy look at you!" madi says with big eyes and smile. "i look dead i know blame the child" i say pointing at my baby bump. she comes in and we sit at the table. my parents weren't home yet. so we were home alone.
"wheres chase?" madi says expressing confusion. "about that. hes been very very distant lately and i don't know what going on. i can't assume because theres nothing bad he would do to me or lila" i say trying not to cry. "how has he been distant?" madi tries to help but asking. "hes real short with me when we talk and i know that isn't really anything. like maybe hes nervous or something but it gets weirder. he can't even sleep as the same house as me. since 3 weeks ago i only see him 4 hours per week" i explain. "maybe hes nervous about being a dad? have you talked to him or brought it to his attention?" madi questions. "yeah i have and he says hes sorry but goes right back to it" i tell her. man i hate it so much.
i talk to madi a little more before we go into my room. she helped me transfer the baby clothes from my closet to the drawers in the babys nursery. "you know mads, this was planned all of it. im just nervous now to actually care for her" i cry into her shoulder. she hugs me and pets my head. "its okay im here babe. and it may not feel like it but chase is too" her words hit me hard. almost as if they were tatooed in my brain.
madi also helped me film my story time video. she set everything up all i did was talk. i felt so loved by her. how did i get so lucky? she started filming and gave me a thumbs up to start talking. "hello lovely people! im adalyn blake..well fuck it no one calls me adalyn. im addy and im very pregnant. 7 months pregnant to be exact with the one and only lila hudson. so the day we announced i was pregnant we went live. i was very vague and said that it was planned and i would do a story time. this is that story time. okay so heres the reasoning. when i was 10 i was adopted by my aunt and uncle. my parents couldnt raise me because they were too young. i havent seen them ever since. so my goal has always been to be a better mother than my birth mom was. when i met chase i knew i wanted a family with him and so much more. literally days before tour we had a pregnancy scare. after we found out i wasn't pregnant, i got sad basically. when we thought i was pregnant i was happy that i would spend my life with him and i was gonna be the mother of his child. so i told him how i felt and he agreed with me. so lila was conceived days after that maybe even hours to be honest. but yeah that's why this is happening." i explain to the camera. i told a little more and ended the video.
madi helped me edit it too and we got it uploaded that night. madi decided to text chase and see what was up with him to help me out.
madi💅: yo chase babyyy
chase💜😍: madi babyyy
madi💅: hey so what's up? addys upset because ur so distant..why?
chase💜😍: tbh im afraid im not good enough for her or lila and idk how to cope with the thought of it
madi💅: chase, ur always gonna be a big role in their lives. u can't be away. stay for lila and u and addy are the ones for esch other don't u see that?
chase💜😍: thank u madi i needed to hear that. tell addy im staying with her forever and always
