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forty eight-8 months

addy's pov

chase still isn't staying the night. its pissing me off so much. i called him over to talk to him. he probably thinks its something about the baby. it is kinda but mostly about him. i had been up since 4 due to braxton hicks which are basically fake contractions.

i sat in the kitchen while my mom made me tea. she found this special tea that helps with breast milk development or something like that. "adds don't stress. he'll understand, hes just a little lost right now and doesn't know how to find himself" my mom realized how stressed i was. "mom im just scared. i always think of the worst scenarios" i explain to her.

she gave me the tea and i drank it all quickly. then without being prepared i heard 3 knocks on the door. i opened it to see the tall blue eyed boy looking right at me. "come to my room chase" i say avoiding eye contact. he obeys what i say and follows me. i close the door and turn to him.

"chase what the fuck?" is all i manage to say. millions of thoughts in my head only 3 words came out. "im sorry addy" "you don't get it. you never will. im not leaving you ever and i will never treat you this way. look at it like this. you stopped sleeping over almost 2 months ago. that's a lot of lonely nights of throwing up at 4 am and having no one right there with you. feeling her kicks at night and not being able to put your hand on them. chase we're having a fucking daughter in the matter of weeks. you need to be there. you need to be the dad i never had. a present one. a good one. i know you hudson and i know you can do that. do it for me. do it for your little girl, lila." my words seemed to hit him. his eyes filled with tears and he stood up. his hands cupped my face and we stated in each others eyes. "addy if i hurt you, i never meant to. i needed some time to prepare for lila. it's so nerve wracking becoming a dad. i can't imagine how you feel. im sorry i needed my family. i misunderstood that you were the family i needed. im staying and never ever leaving. im keeping my word"

after that i showed him the nursery which wasn't even half way done yet. "let me finish it. you go rest" he pointed at me to leave. i smiled and left the room. i laid on my bed thinking about how happy i was to have my lover back. i can't wait for the day where i can hold the two most important people in my life. lila and chase. i sat in deep thought until he fininshed the nursery.

when he came back he sat in my chair where i sit to do my makeup. "hey have you packed the hospital bag yet?" he says turning to look at me. i shook my head in response. "let's do it now so we're ready" he suggests. i got the bag and we walked over to the nursery which was like 2 or 3 steps away from my room.

we put purple pacifiers and pink ones too. chase chose an outfit while i did too. we didn't know how long i would be at the hospital so we chose 3 outfits. 1st one we agreed on as being her 1st outfit to wear.

we had a headband with a rose on it. chase chose the second outfit for her to wear the day after.

i chose the 3rd outfit.

lemme just say. shes gonna be so fucking adorable. i mean of course. chase fucking hudson made her. i was so excited to show the world to her and show her the world. and when fans meet her ahh i can't wait. after we packed the bag, we sat in my room and basically just talked. he seemed so curious and it made me so happy that he wanted to know these things.

"what kind of birth do you plan on having?" "honestly natural at the hospital with epidural. i would want a homebirth but at the same time i don't" i explain to him. "okay who do you want in the room?" "you, and my mom. your mom can come too" "

he seemed better once he knew my answers. usually women have their baby showers a month before the baby would come. we didn't plan it. we were really busy so we plan on holding it march 16th. it might be a welcome home baby but as long as she's celebrated im okay with it