exhale

constant

i'm tired.

i'm tired of the constant presence. i'm tired of the constant worrying. i'm tired of the constant feigned understanding. i'm tired of the constant thinly masked judgement.

i'm just so tired.

i was always told that consistency was important, but it's driving me insane.

i am grateful for the companionship, but i can't deal with it constantly being about me. i need to focus on someone else for a while.

i'm tired of talking about any issues i might have. i'm tired of trying not to step too harshly on the ice.

i'm tired of constantly laughing at jokes i don't get. i'm tired of constantly explaining how i feel. i'm tired of constantly acting like i don't know things. i'm tired of the constant urge to stop everything.

i'm just so tired.