Sophomore Year

10. Lost In The Moment

WARNING: This chapter contains somewhat detailed sexual activity. If you are bothered by this topic, do not keep reading. This specific chapter is all made up.
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Selena stops me as I walk in the door. "Hi," I said as I tried to walk by. "Okay, what are you doing?" I asked. She gestured for me to sit down. "We need to talk about Tony," she said. "Um, okay? What about him?" Looking surprised my sister said, "He hasn't told you?"
"Told me what?" I asked. She looked down before answering me. "He is being evicted soon, and he is getting his truck totaled  he won't be able to come get you or anything," she said. I looked at her in disbelief. My dad who is suppose to be the one taking care of me has me staying with different people all the time. I wasn't shocked about where I would be staying, but I was shocked about losing the apartment . Since I lived with my dad, I had lived with Hailey for almost three months, my sister for almost one month, my brother for two weeks, and more to come.

I felt angry that dad was going to leave me with another person again. I didn't care if I knew the person or not. He was suppose to be taking care of me. I walked outside and bumped into Blake. "Sorry," I said and continued walking to the side of the porch to sit. Still in ear shot, I heard Blake ask Selena. "What happen?" Selena took a deep breath before responding to him. "Tony is getting his car totaled and evicted from their apartment. Since Lindsay moved in with him, she's spent more time at other people's house than his."
Blake said, "Oh wow. I'm sorry about that."
"Don't tell me that, tell her," Selena said and walked back inside.

Blake walked over to me and sat down. "Hey," he said. "I'm sorry about-," I cut him off. "You're sorry about what I'm going through. Yeah. I know. I hear it all the time." Blake looked down and put his hand on my thigh. "Do you like Smoothies?" He asked. I looked at him confused. "Let's go get a smoothie and some bud. I'll let Selena know we're leaving. Okay?" I honestly didn't want to go anywhere, but I love smoothies and I didn't want to turn one down. Blake drove to the Smoothie place with his hand holding mine. "I know that you're only sixteen, but I really enjoy spending time with you," Blake said. "Do you really?" I asked. "Is that even a question?" He asked. "Of course. Not only when we are intimate, but when we just talk. I feel right when I'm with you." I began to smile and blush at what he said. "I enjoy spending time with you too." Blake smiled and kissed my hand.

We walked into the smoothie shop and Blake got a triple berry smoothie and I got a strawberry banana. We sat at the shop and we talked and laughed. Blake really made me feel happy. Not only when I was high. My whole mood changed after we got into the car to come to get the smoothies. Blake ordered two vanilla cake pops. The lady from the counter brought them to us and asked, "is this a date?" We both laughed, "No ma'am. Just friends," Blake said. Hearing that hurt me inside a little bit. Four year age difference. We finished our smoothies and our cake pops. "You ready to go get some bud?" He asked. I smiled and nodded. He grabbed my hand walked us to the car. Blake opened my door for me and as I sat down, he kissed me. Blake and I were listening and singing along to the radio. I had been through so much in such a short time span. In this moment, I could actually say I felt alive and happy.

Blake drove to Lovers Leap after we got the bud. Instead of blunts, we used bowls. Blake bought 4g, and we smoked 2 at first. I was feeling really good. I was on top of the world. "Do you have school tomorrow?" Blake asked. "No. It's Saturday." I laughed and adjusted my seat to lay back. Blake has a sun roof in his car, and we looked up at the stars and talked. We smoked the last two grams, and I was buzzed. Blake put his hand on my thigh, and he slowly put his body against mine. He sat on me for a good five minutes before he started to grind his body on mine. "You okay?" He asked. I nodded.

Blake began to kiss me slowly while holding on to my waist. I smiled. "What?" He asked as he giggled. "I just-I just feel so happy right now," I said. "Let's keep you happy." Blake began to go down my neck, chest, stomach, and my thighs. Blake moved himself to the backseat and used his finger to direct me his way. I put myself on Blake and began to kiss him more. A few minutes later, Blake lifted me and put me on my back. We made eye contact and he smiled. Blake took off his shirt, and he worked his way to take mine off as well. Kissing me down my body, Blake took my pants off as he got down. He came back up to me face to face. We were both in our underwear and me in my bra.

Blake began to grind his body on mine and once again I could feel the bulge. His hands continues down my body, and when they reached my hips, he looked at me. "Is this okay?" He asked. Knowing what he meant this time, I nodded. Blake came back up to me as he stuck his hand down my underwear. He began to kiss me as he did this and he smiled. I didn't feel the urge to stop him. I felt safe with him, and I felt happy. He pulled my underwear down along with his. He pulled out the condoms and before going all the way he looked at me and asked, "Are you sure this is okay? We don't have to." I looked at him with a slight smile, "I'm sure."

Blake began to push in slowly, and my body jerked. "Are you okay?" He asked. I nodded my head yes as I held onto the head rest of the seats. He began slowly and kissed me as he went. He began to kiss me more forcefully while he added and began to go in and out a bit faster than last time. He kissed down my neck and left more hickies as he continued to go down to my legs. "You okay?" He asked. I was so in love with the way he kept asking me if I was okay. He really cared. "Yes. I'm okay."  Going back in, he made a soft moan. We switched positions. He was on bottom now. I didn't know exactly what I doing, but it was okay. After all of that, both of us kissed and lied down together. We fell asleep in the back seat of his car, and we were disturbed by the sound of a phone ringing. It was Blake's phone. "Hey, Jackson. What's up?"
"Where are you and Lindsay?" He asked. "It's 2:30 in the morning!" I could hear Jackson through the phone. Was it really that late? "Yeah, sorry. We got carried away. I was taking her to a bunch of different stores. I guess we lost track of time," Blake lied. "Oh. Well, just head back to the house. Selena is worried." Jackson hung up. Blake began to kiss me and hold me again.  "Thirty minutes and we'll go, " he said. Feeling Blake's skin touching mine made me feel safe. It made feel wanted, and for once, it made me feel at home.