Plus Size Queen

The Weekend

After the long week. It was finally Saturday. I was sleep on the couch cause my bed was too far away Friday. I jolted up when I heard someone knocking on the door. I flipped my hair out of my face and went to get the door.

"Hi Jamie can we talk." I stood there confused by her presence. I haven't saw her since she pushed me on the floor. I wasn't prepared for this. I never thought I would be. I grabbed the measuring tape. I pulled out 45 inches.

"Stay 45 inches away from me at all times." She laughed and backed away. I just rolled my eyes and slide away from her.

"I wanted to apologize." She said. I did a quick turn in her direction. I never heard her say that word to me.

"What?" I said making sure I heard what I think I heard.

"I am sorry... I know what I did was wrong. Since the time you was born till the time I pushed you down when you did nothing wrong. I have been living with the pastor the whole month after I pushed you down. We have been talking and praying. I see that what I did was stupid and immature. Please Forgive me. I promise to be a better person." She was crying while she was apologizing. I ran in the house and gave her a box of tissues. I stepped a few meters way. I never seen her so full of such empathy or emotion in my whole life time. I didn't know what to feel. Ever with her apology I still fill hurt. That is why I couldn't tell her it's ok.

"Well thanks I guess. I have to go now." I ran in the house. I didn't want to cry. I kept telling myself...Don't cry Jamie, Don't cry. I guess that method did not work because I couldn't stop the tears from coming down my face. It just kept going.

"Jamie. Please talk to me a little longer." I emotionally can not do it. I thought I could hand everything that life handed to me but I was dead wrong. I quietly did another sob and tried to talk without letting her know I was crying.

"I can't. Come again at another time please." I said.

"Oh ok." I know she walked away when her heel was loudly clacking on the cement. Her car engine started and you can hear the car drive away. I dialed a number I didn't care who it was.

"Hello." I said whipping my tears away.

"Hi Jamie what's up are you ok? I hear you crying." I guess I ended up calling James. I hope he can make me feel a little better. I may have just met him but I like his humor.

"Can you take me to BennyFoodFun? I want to sing." I just wanted to really release my emotion. I just can't even handle these kind of emotion at once.

"Yeah I am going to be there in ten minutes. Bye!" He said. I thought he hung up and repeated bye.

"Bye." I took a five minute shower then went to the closet and picked out pants and a plain blue shirt. I heard a loud knock on the door. I ran down stairs and open the door.

"Which one should I wear the blue heels or black and blue flats?" I ask holding both of them beside me. He smiled and sighed in a good way.

"The flats." He said. I wanted him to say the heels. But whatever I guess. I threw the heels in the front room and lock the door behind myself. He walked me to BennyFoodFun.

"Thank you for taking me to BennyFoodFun. I just feel like singing right now." I hung my low thinking of my mom. I don't want to sing about her either. I just want to sing.

"Why do you suddenly want to this place?" He said pointing to Benny Food Fun. I looked at it unknowingly. I shrug my shoulder and walked in with James behind me. He sat at the spot I saw him in the first time I was here. He pulled out a chair for me then went to his. The weird guy with the microphone was asking if he could have a volunteer to sing. I stood up and he rushed to me and dragged me to the stage.

"What will you sing for us today?" He asked.

"DEMI LOVATO LYRICS fix A Heart" I said getting ready to sing. The microphone guy gave me the stage and everyone clapped.

"It's probably what's best for you

I only want the best for you

And if I'm not the best then you're stuck

I tried to sever ties and I ended up with wounds to bind

Like you're pouring salt in my cuts

And I just ran out of band-aids

I don't even know where to start

'Cause you can bandage the damage

You never really can fix a heart

Even though I know what's wrong

How could I be so sure

If you never say what you feel, feel

I must have held your hand so tight

You didn't have the will to fight

I guess you needed more time to heal

Baby, I just ran out of band-aids

I don't even know where to start

'Cause you can bandage the damage

You never really can fix a heart

Ooh, ooh

Whoa, whoa

Yeah

Ooh, ooh

Whoa, whoa

Whoa, whoa

Oh, oh

Yeah

You must be a miracle worker

Swearing up and down

You can fix what's been broken, yeah

Please don't get my hopes up

No, no, baby, tell me how could you be so cruel?

It's like you're pouring salt on my cuts

Baby, I just ran out of band-aids

I don't even know where to start

'Cause you can bandage the damage

You never really can fix a heart

Baby, I just ran out of band-aids

I don't even know where to start

'Cause you can bandage the damage

You never really can fix a heart

Oh no, no, no

You never really can fix a heart

Oh no, no, no

You never really can fix a heart

Oh-oh, oh, oh-oh yeah-oh, oh, oh, oh

You never really can fix my heart" I whipped away my tears and heard people clapping. I heard a few whistle. I gave them a bow and walked to James. He side closer to me and put his arms around me.

"Are you ok?" He asked rubbing my back.

"Yeah I guess." I tried not to cry and suck it up. He brought me some food and walked me home. It was dark when I got home. We said our goodbyes and went off to sleep. My father decided to get mad about me for leaving without asking but I was sleep after he was two minutes into it.

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