Always

Chapter 13

LISSA

The next morning I didn't open my eyes once I had awoken. I wanted this moment to last forever. I never had expeirienced anything like it. I felt something warm and lovely in my heart while Niall held me. With my eyes still closed I tried to lean forward, but Niall's arms were locked around me. I shifted my body towards his instead of trying to escape and pondered on what was to happen today. I was dreading getting up out of the bed and more importantly Niall's arms.

It was Wednesday, I knew my phone was on the night stand and was probably almost dead because I hadn't charged it last night. I still wouldn't let myself let go of this beautiful moment that I didn't even need to see to know was perfect, by opening my eyes. I would ruin it. I could feel Niall's warm breath fan my face. The fourth week of self defense classes was almost over and I had already missed half of the week. Even though I didn't know when it would end, I knew it would end in a matter of weeks, and that thought made me sad and I knew I would miss Niall.

I decided that the morning and our time in this bed wasn't over yet and if I opened my eyes I wouldnt ruin it. I fought internally on whether I should open my eyes yet or not. I didn't want to lose this moment of pure bliss. I finally let out and slowly opened my eyes to the morning sun spilling through the windows. As soon as I opened my eyes, I was met with a striking pair of icy blue eyes. I was startled. My eyes widened. I probably looked terrible.

"Hey." Niall said simply in a raspy voice. I smiled.

"Hey." I replied. He smiled now too. Then, I realized how close we were. Our noses were almost touching. I think Niall realized this too because just then he said one word.

"Shit." I was confused and ashamed. I started to get up.

"I'm sorry, I-" I didn't know what to say or what to apolagize, I didn't want to apoligize because I had liked being that close to him.

"No no no, I, I wasn't saying shit in a bad way I, I just was overwhelmed. I mean you are beautiful, but up close. Wow. You are even more amazing." I stayed where I was, not knowing what to do. I didn't know how to respond, afraid I would say the wrong thing. I didn't want to lead him on or anything. He had told me he liked me, and I didn't know what to do. I didn't want to hurt him, becauseI would if we were anymore than this. I sucked at relationships.

I fought the sudden ugre to lean forward and connect our lips. I didn't know why I wanted to do that when I had just thought I would hurt him if we were anything more. He swallowed and I felt a sneeze coming on. I opened my mouth slighty and leaned back and then forward. Thats when Niall's warm lips came to meet mine while I was about to sneeze. The sneeze then disappeared. I continued to kiss Niall. He wrapped his arms around me even tighter. We rolled and then Niall was on top of me. The room felt 100 degrees warmer now.

Niall cupped my cheeks and our kissed was filled with passion, hunger, and... love? I kissed him back hard. He bit my lip unexpectedly and when my mouth opened slightly, Niall's tongue invaded my mouth. I moaned softly. I fisted Niall's hair and he throatily goaned. I didn't want this to go any farther. I needed to stop, but I couldn't. I was high off of Niall, he was addictive and I never wanted to be apart from him.

We continued to kiss. Niall propped his arms up so he was slightly raised above me. He smiled at me then put his hand on my waist and pressed all of me closer to all of him. He moaned loudly now. After a few seconds, I felt a bulge in Niall's pants. He continued to kiss me and the bulge became more prominent. His kisses became more hungry for me.

"Lissa" he moaned my name. "Your so beautiful." He said with no reluctance. I would have blushed but my cheeks were already hot from our combined body temperature. I smiled into the kiss. Then Niall's bulge was very noticable through his pants, and pressed against me, which only made it bigger. I slowly pushed Niall off me with delicacy. He looked slightly hurt and craved for more. I glanced down to his pants and his eyes followed mine, his cheeks flared in embarrassment.

Then Niall Horan said the most embarrassing thing that I have ever heard. "I can't help it." and shrugged as he ran to the bathroom. I didn't know what to make of what had just happened. It was wonderful but now it hurt. Kissing brought memories of boyfriends she wanted to forget. It seemed that now adays, more and more things brought back memories. I hated it. I heard grunts and moans from the bathroom and at one she thought she heard her name being moaned out in pleasure. I was still sitting on the bed out of breath when Niall came out of the bathroom a good ten minutes later.

He walked over to me with a dopey smile. He pushed me onto the bed and got back on top of me. He tickled me and I laughed uncontrolably. I cried for him to release me. I was about to pee my pants. He finally shut me up by kissing my laughing lips. I kissed him back but then grunted and pushed him away. I wiped my mouth and got up.

"I need to get ready, you to." I said without emotion. I didn't want to tell him. I didn't know how to tell him again, that we couldn't date, because it would just end badly. He was older and had a life and people would just hate them for dating. He didn't show any signs of rejection, yet. He still stole another kiss that I couldn't bring myself to avoid. We both washed our faces and Niall drove us to the mall. We quickly bought things to change into. I wore nice dark dark skinny jeans with a floral undershirt and a teal crop top t shirt. I had asked him how he had picked out the clothes and he said that the lady at the desk had given him recomendations.

We got food and then started our 2 hour trip back to London. The bad thing about this car trip, was that it only involved us, and it would be hard to avoid a convseration about the morning kiss.