Always

Chapter 20

LISSA
      
       Everyone looked at me and I didn't like the attention I was getting because I knew this was most likely about Niall and I. When I had got to the living room they all look anxiously and had furrowed eyebrows or crinkled foreheads. But before I could do anything else they all stood up and walked towards me. I felt like I was about to get mugged.

        No punch or hit or slap ever came because a big group of arms were wrapped around me. Kat was in the inner circle of the hug and whispered something to me that made me teary eyed.
   
        "We were so worried, thank you for being okay." She said softly as they squeezed me, even the guys. I was suprised at how much they cared. I wasn't used to this. Being surrounded by people who cared. I sadly smiled. Then we broke the hug up and everyone sat back down. 

        "Ok now I think you owe us an explanation." the girls said sternly. They were talking about last night when I never came back to Elizabeth's flat. I was kind of mad at them because they ditched me, but didn't let it on because I had already screwed enough things up.

        "I couldn't find you and I looked for like an hour, but I was really drunk and I had been talking to this bartender guy named Xander." the girls raised there eyebrows and the guys looked concerned and were hoping I still liked Niall and not had sex with Xander. "He took me to his flat and we slept. Thats all no fooling around, even though I just met him, he feels like my brother. I actually stayed with him longer because he convinced me to get a tattoo. 

        Zayn came over and patted me on the back. The boys all had tattoos and liked them so they automatically approved and lightened the mood. Mae, Elizabeth, Kat, and Dakota liked the small teardrop too when they saw it. 

        "We kind of broke into your house just kind of furthur find out what happened with Niall and you. We were afraid that you had already moved on. But we dont want you to move on." Kat said for the group. "We ship NIssa or Liall." She added with a laugh.

        I just stared at her, I didn't want a ship name or another reason to feel guilty. 

        "I guess we just want to kind of know more about you." Louis said. I nodded and thought I could tell them a bit of my past, but nothing bad. 

        "Well, I moved away from my family quite awhile ago and i didn't leave on good terms. My mother was in a coma when I left. I hate my Dad and Aunt and thats all I have to say about those to. My mother was beat so hard that she was thrown into a coma. But before all that, I had an amazing life and a boyfriend, a big house, a brother, and lots of friends. My favorite color is um... blue or grey I guess and I used to love every kind of music but country. Although, I haven't listened to music in awhile. Before I met you guys I had a pretty bland life."

        I could tell that everyone wanted to know more about how my mother went into a coma, but that was a very difficult thing to tell and I think they realized I didn't want to tell anymore and backed off. It was somewhere in the late afternoon. Everyone stayed and we started to play Never Have I Ever. Of course the boys had brought alcohol so for everything that we had done we took shots or a gulp of beer. Most of the game wasn't personal, but one question left everyone wondering. 

        "Never have I ever, seen someone die." Mae said giggling drunkenly. Everyone sobered up when I took a shot.  They stared at me for a second. I was an honest drunk so I took that shot and surprised everyone and left them worried. But, since everyone was full on blasted, the game just continued. Not for me though. I just kept thinking about that death. After everyone left after soberning up I had crashed on my bed. My dreams weren't peaceful. 

        "NO." I cried out as my aunt fell to the ground. Even after everything she;d done, I still didn't want to see her dead. A stain of red began to grow around her chest and there was an entry wound tha had left a hole in her blouse. My brother held the gun that had killed her. Tanner had a twisted and cruel mind. He felt just as betrayed as I felt, which was a suprise wince he was just like my aunt and they seemed alike. But she had torn our family apart, or had participated in its undoing. I stood there shocked and horrified. Tanner turned to me with the gun. I was so afraid. 

        When my aunt was shot, Tanner quickly had left, not turned his gun on me. I was scared of what would happen next. Even if this was a dream. His finger began to squeeze the trigger. Before the bullet hit me, someone stepped in front of me and shielded me against the inevitable. The man that stood before me was a blonde and was practically glowing. He turned to me unscathed and everything else around us dissolved into nothing. It was just us. 

        Niall looked me right in the eyes and I saw his beautiful blue ones. They were truly mezmorizing. He had saved me. He always seemed to be saving me. From Macy and many times from myself. I didn't know how long I could go without seeing his eyes in person. I was wrapped his arms in seconds and was close to tears I missed him that much. He pulled back and held my face. He pulled me into a hug again after staring at me for a moment longer. 

        "Please Niall needs you and I know that you need him." Niall said. Even though he was just part of a dream, I felt like he was actually speaking for Niall.