Land of light

crimzen's diary

 That one piece of life that I have saved felt like I saved the world. That one life, which I found out was named Taylor, was going to be left for dead and now if he goes back to the Sinidelian army he would be dead. I started to wonder what was going to become of him, and become of us since I had now immersed ourselves into this war. I wondered what would the future be but Leon had more to say and I didn’t mind the words since he would become my mentor. I started to trust him since now he has saved my life, twice.

Though I was not prepared to hear what Doc had to say to me afterwards but that is how I gain trust, put myself into a situation that I could save myself but just enough that I am over ran by that situation. I know it is cowardly and woman like to the lowest level. Although I do not doubt myself in any way I am just now all these years later that my tactics of trust was horribly off.

I think that the moments were right when I wound up more of saving the enemy than not. It made me feel less like Sin and more like an individual.