Chased for her (18+) ON HOLD

Don't go..

Matt's POV:
I didn't know what to say to Macy.. how to convince her, my mind went totally blank reading those messages..

I thought she would stick with me through out my life no matter what, why? Why would she do do this to me when we were so happy with our life's..?

She broke my heart.. but I can never be angry with her, because she is my world, she makes me angry a minute and the next I feel like taking her in my arms and never letting her go..

I immediately text her on email saying to think of some other solution rather than breaking up with me.

Me:Macy, baby please don't do this to me.. I can't live without u..
Without u it's like I am no more.. it's like there is no purpose to live in this world.. baby please don't go..don't leave me..

After few hours I get her reply.

Macy:Matt I know it's hard, not only for u but also for me.. but seeing my mom cry.. my dad getting angry on me, is making me go crazy.. please understand my situation.. I can't do this because this guilt is eating me away..I am so sorry Matt.. please forgive me.

Me:Macy u breaking up with me means u r leaving me.. there is no other meaning to it..
I can't take the pain anymore Macy.. I feel like my soul is being pulled out off my body.. I don't want to live in a place without u.. I can't

Macy: Matt please don't do shit stuff.. please.. we can be best friends.. until the right time.. ok?

Me:and what do u mean untill right time?

Macy:Matt seriously I don't know too.. my dad is very protective and different.. call him a narcissistic, sadistic man.. whatever u want but he gets what he wants and if anyone says or does against it.. hell will break loose.

Me:so.. u will never be mine?
U will never marry me?
U will never become the mother of my children I dreamed off?

Macy: Matt..don't u think u have gone too far.. I'm just going to turn 18 in few months.. and u r talking about marriage..? I don't know Matt.. I don't know what I have in store for future but u have to cooperate with me.. please
Let's be best friends for now.. and think about the future later .. please?

Me:I don't know Macy... How a person can be friends with the girl he is in LOVE?

Macy: I know Matt it's stupid.. but this is the only way I can be guilt free.. and have you in my life too.
U r important to me Matt.. but my family is important too..
Please think about it..

Me:I don't know Macy.. I need time.. I don't feel like staying at home now.. I'm going out..I'll talk to you later..
Bye love..

Macy:Matt please be careful.. and think about it.. don't do stupid stuff okay?

Me:let's see..

And with that I just switch off my phone because I know my mom will be calling me later, asking me where I am and the last thing I want is my mom seeing me cry.

Macy, not being in my life is making me terrified..
I can't stay without her.

Gosh.. it's harder than I thought.. I think to myself and get on my bike and ride towards a warehouse.. where I can find peace of mind through weed....

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