Kisses
"Okay?"
Ano isasagot ko sa okay nya. Okay din? Hay nako.
To be honest, I missed talking to him. I missed texting him and...I don't want this night to end kahit na maaga pa dapat kami bukas at kahit na alam kong mali. Pero okay? Ano isasagot ko dito???
Okay.
Sent
I was a little upset. Okay used to be our always but today, it feels like a goodbye.
Hindi na sya nagreply. After ng ilang minuto, matutulog na sana ako nang biglang may tumawag sa phone ko.
Dons calling...
Why is he calling? I thought he has already fallen asleep.
"Hello?"
"Hi. I'm right outside your house."
What?? Why is he here?
"Why?? I thought you've fallen asleep"
"I just need to give you something"
Nataranta akong lumabas sa aking kwarto. I'm already wearing my pajamas for goodness sake..
"Hello"
He was smiling and holding a brown paper bag. I miss that smile...
"Um h-hi? Nambibigla ka dis oras ng gabi"
"Haha sorry. I just brought you food. Diba nagugutom ka?"
"Yea? Pero late na maaga pa tayo bukas, hindi ka na sana nag abala pa"
"But you need to eat! Diba sabi ko sayo, eat right. Galing ka pa lang sa hospital"
Why is he like this? He's acting like my boyfriend again...
"Why are you doing this? Mamaya nyan umasa akong babalik ka sakin ah"
"Um...ano kase...gusto ko lang bumawi -"
I don't want this. I don't want to make it more awkward between us so...
"Jooooke. Haha tara sabayan mo ako? Andami nitong binili mo eh"
Hindi na rin sya nakahindi at binuksan nya ang trunk ng sasakyan nya. Don kami kumain.
"Wow daming stars ngayon" I was really amazed
"You still love the stars noh?"
Napatigil ako sa pagkain ko. I remember the nights he'd bring me to places where we can watch the stars together.
"Of course" I smiled weakly
"Continue to shine like the stars, Kiss, because the darker the night, the brighter the stars shine" he said
I caught myself staring at him while he stares at the stars up there.
"I mean it" he said then looked at me
I just smiled then continued eating
"Look...Kisses, I'm really sorry for what happened to us"
"Dons, tama na. Quotang quota ka na sa sorry today and besides...I've already forgiven you"
"But why? Bakit ang bait mo?"
"I just don't want to hold grudges on people especially sayo. You weren't just my boyfriend, you were my bestfriend...you still are."
He let out a big sigh.
"Can I hug you?"
I just stared at him for few minutes then nodded. Niyakap nya ako agad agad at wala na din akong nagawa kundi yakapin sya pabalik.
I missed him. Mas ramdam ko yung yakap nyang to kaysa dun sa yakap nya nung last namin na pagusap.
We stayed like that for good five minutes at habang tumatagal, mas humihigpit ang yakap nya. Naririnig ko din syang humihikbi.
He's crying.
"Donny"
"Please, just one more minute"
I just let him
"Dons, maaga pa tayo bukas. Uwi ka na. Tulog na tayo"
Kumawala sya sa yakap. Nakita ko ang mga mata nya. It was full of pain and maybe, longing.
I just don't get it. If he's hurt like that, then why did he leave me in the first place?
"I'm sorry...Alam kong dapat hindi na ako nagpunta dito. Pinagsabihan pa ako ni tito na umalis na ako, wag na kita kausapin at paasahin pa..."
I was just staring at him, listening..
"But when I read your letter, it tells me otherwise then Hannah told me to follow my heart. That's why I'm here. I followed ny heart. Excuse lang talaga yung pagkain. Ayaw kong umalis. Ayaw kitang iwan."
I started crying when he said those things. He used his thumb to wipe my tears.
"Kisses. I love you, I still love you. It may not show this past month but I still do"
I love you more...kung alam mo lang...
"I'll make things right Kisses. Please, just give me time. I will fix myself. Will you wait for me?"
"Donny...I still need answers. Explain to me kung ano ba talaga nangyari."
"As much as I want to, it's getting late. Kailangan mo na magbeauty rest para sa grad natin bukas"
Natawa ako ng konti.
"But promise, I'll explain everything"
"Okay" I said
"Please, I need to know that you'll wait for me"
I looked into his eyes and I said to myself that he's worth taking every risk.
"I'll wait"
Somehow, I felt relieved after a long time. Parang nabunutan ng malaking tinik yung puso ko.
Our eyes full of tears met. I smiled, he smiled back. After that, he kissed my forehead, down to my nose then my cheek.
"I love you" he said while cupping my face.
"I love you more"
Then with that, he kissed me on my lips. It was just a short sweet kiss but it was full of emotions, emotions that were suppressed from the past month.
"Wag mo na ako antayin makauwi love, kailangan mo na matulog. Mamumugto mata mo nyan sa pictures bukas."
"Okay" I wiped my tears then smiled
"Okay" I wiped his too then smiled
We hugged each other again before he left.
Never did I know that it will be the last hug I'll get from him...
