Secrecy of Regrets

30 Before I turn my Detective Mode on

30 Before I turn my Detective Mode on

*7 Days Letter...

I woke up at 4 freaking in morning. Actually around 3 o'clock in morning but I thought I could sleep again. But all in vain. I couldn't sleep. I got up and made my way to kitchen making sure not to make voice and not to break Charlotte's beauty sleep. I switched lights on my way to kitchen.

What am I doing at Charlotte's home?

Do you remember the Jerk? Yeah Jack the freaking Nicholson!

I tried to find each and every apartment which was in newspaper or online. I couldn't find even worse apartment. Either rent would be out of my league or just out of my taste or I am pretty sure that it is Charlotte's doing or that Jerk's doing or both of them are involved. Most convincing part is Charlotte was with me all the time I went to take a look at any apartment. She was very casual when we got failure as if she was expecting the same thing.

And now I am tenant at Charlotte's house. I agreed to stay at her home only on condition that she will take reasonable rent from me.

The three nuts helped me to get my luggage from house. I and Jack completed all legal formalities as I am non-resident here. I have a room with one of my favorite colors – Baby blue! It is pretty, not too girly and not too stoic. I have finally arranged my clothes and documents.

Ethan helped me to put fairy lights here and there in room. I found a room where I can do my daily prayers and place Ganesha and his father Lord Shiva's photo! I worship these gods. And mind you, I have so many many gods and goddesses to worship but it's not possible to place all of them here now, is it?

I made my coffee and with some cookies. I came back to my room and started one of many Korean dramas with English Subtitles. 

I was just finished my cookies and half of the coffee when I heard the front door opened. Who might be there at this early in the morning!

Is it Ethan to confess his undying love for Charlotte?

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NO... He might be sleeping like octopus. Then who is there? Someone passed by my room.

Oh my god!

Before I turn my Detective Mode on, the person who just passed by the room came to my room. The person is none other than Jerk Nicholson!

"What are you doing here?" I asked.

"Why are you awake?" He asked.

AT THE SAME TIME.

"I couldn't sleep. Actually, I am nervous. Today is first day of college." I cleared my doubts. And why the hell I let him know my nervousness???

"You should be excited to meet new people there and who knows you might be able to make friends."

"That's the problem. I am not very good at making new friends." Again I just opened my mouth.

"You just have to start with little good morning or Hii?" He suggested me.

"I just can't start conversation that freely apart from 'Hey you drop your wallet or Hey your shoelaces are untied' and if it's not enough I would just laugh on those people when they proudly sleep their hand in pocket to pay the bill and they don't find their wallet there or just trip down due to their shoelaces because I was not so interested to start conversation!"

He shook his head. Guess he can't come up with other better idea!

"By the way, it is not good to enter in someone's home at this early hours, even if it's your best friend's." I fired back. What! I couldn't help it.

"I pass by from this street every morning. I saw lights are on. I couldn't ignore the fact that Charlotte is not enthusiastic to wake up this early in the morning and I forgot that you also stay here now."

Only then I got time to examine the almighty here. He is wearing his tracks and for the pleasure of my mind it's navy blue! And grey hoodie! He is leaning on the door frame. And during this whole conversation he was there standing and I am in my bed.

Even though I hate his guts I accept that I am a bad host. I didn't even offer him a sit.

"You can sit... Ummm there on my chair?" This came out as a question because I also have doubt about my offer.

Sometimes my mind just got hang due to thousands of thought compilation.

It's not sometime- it's most of the times.

NO. It's always when he is nearby.

"No. I will go now." And I stood up from my position with my now cold coffee in hand. His gaze trailed down to my shorts to my toes. I felt uncomfortable and angry?

"Ok. See you later." I deliberately said it loud to bring him out his scrutiny.

He shift in his position uncomfortably as he was caught red handed. He turned with simple 'bye'. I just close my door loudly not caring Charlotte's sleep this time. I am definitely not interested to walk him through the door. He will go just the same as he entered the house.

And with Jerk gone, I am brought to the reality of the first freaking day of college.

How am I going to start those most people who will probably two or three years younger than me? How on the earth am I going to some of those immature behaviors?

These complex thoughts will only be answered when I'll come across some of those people.

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13-07-2019

Why did Jiyana get so angry just because Jack was checking her out? 

Why did she feel uncomfortable by such things? 

Does this have any connection with her secret she is hiding from everyone? 

We'll see gradually. And for now let's see next her first day at college. 

Happy Reading!!!