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• Laken Noelle •
"Ready to go?" Jensen shouts from the living room. You just finished getting ready, you just need to put on some mascara. Jensen knocks on the door. "Come in." You say and smile when you see him.
"Why are you putting on all this makeup? You look prettier without it." He says with a smile on his face. I roll my eyes at his joke but, he looks sincere.
"C'mon were gonna be late." He says and you skip past him which causes him to laugh. "What's got you in such a happy mood this morning?" You. Is what I want to say. "I don't know it's just one of those days."
•••
Jensen pulls up to the gates. "Morning Jay." Jeff says, smiling. "Morning Jeff." I yell and move Jensen out of the way so, Jeff could see me. "Oh Laken. I didn't see you there. Good morning to you too." He smiles again and pushes the button to open the gate.
We step out of the car and we start walking to the trailers. And that's when I feel it. The eyes. Everyone is staring at us. Why? I'm honestly confused.
Misha runs up to us and looks like he's going to explode with happiness. I laugh and he hugs me and Jensen tightly. "I knew you two would finally get together. It's fate." He says and I immediately pull away.
What? Date? Who Jensen? I wish. "Um. We're not together. I'm still with Adam." I frown and Misha's smile disappears and so does Jensen's. "Oh. I thought because you came here together. That you were I'm- this is... I'm sorry for assuming. Ignore everything I said. Bye." And then Misha legit runs away. Like runs.
I laugh at Misha. I look back up at Jay and he's frowning still. "What's wrong, Jay?" You question. Did I say something wrong? "Uh. It's nothing. I have to go." And you watch him go into his trailer. Weird.
•••
"It's fate." Misha's words are stuck into my head. I'm not fated to be with Jensen. But who ever it is, they're very lucky. I stand in front of the mirror and just look at myself.
What's so wrong with me? I begin to cry and I'm surprised I can with all the crying I did last night. Geez. Jensen probably thinks I'm a bitchy crybaby.
"L?" Jensen enters the trailer and he makes eye contact with me through the mirror. "L. What's wrong?" I turn around and wrap arms around Jensen hugging him. I just need to be in his arms. He and hugs me back.
"Shh. Baby. Tell me what's wrong." He whispers and my heart is actually beating out of my chest. He called me baby again. Baby.
"No one wants me. No one. It's probably because I'm not skinny enough or pretty enough. Adam says I'm a slut and a bitch so add those to the list of reasons why I'm going to be alone forever. And I cry to much and complain." I rant and Jensen squeezes tighter.
"Don't say untrue things about yourself. Your body is perfect. Your not a slut or a bitch. You only cry because your hurt and you complain because your boyfriend isn't doing his job right. You deserve the world, Laken Noelle." He says and I look at him. Is what he saying true. Does he believe everything he said about me.
He's only trying to cheer me up because we have a scene to shoot in a couple minutes. That's the only reason. Right? I'm still staring up at Jensen and he's looking down at me.
Our faces inch closer together and this time I'm not going to stop. And our lips connect. And I immediately melt into the kiss. It's so gentle but rough. And I can't breathe but I don't want to pull away. He smiles into the kiss. This is what I needed. This. Him.
"Laken. Jensen. You're needed on set." It's Frank, the P.A. and I frown. We both pull away and I'm speechless. I have no idea what to say. This changes everything.
•••
"Why are you acting so weird! You've been so different since last night!" I shout. "You want to know why! You really want to know?" I flinch at his tone. "Yes!" "It's because I love you. I'm so in love with you it hurts. And seeing you with anyone else makes me what to die. It's because I love you."
"CUT" He director yells. "Jensen. Laken. That was amazing. Maybe even your best work."
Damn. I wish me and Jensen had a relationship like Dean and Maya. Jensen and I haven't spoke as each other to each other about the kiss. And I don't know what to say.
Maybe he only did it to shut me up? I don't know what to think anymore. Maybe I just shouldn't. I just need to go home and pack my crap. Today's the day I finally break up with Adam! And I'm terrified.
•••
I knock on the door and wait for this asshole to open the door. The door opens revealing Adam and his eyes widen. "I'm here to get my stuff." I say trying not to make eye contact.
"Laken. Babe. I'm so sorry. I-I didn't mean to hit you. I was just so mad at myself. I want even made at you. I've been trying to deal with my anger but seeing you with him... I just go crazy. I didn't mean anything I said. Any of it. Please don't leave. Please." I'm about to tell him hell no but then I look at him. He's crying. He actually looks sorry.
Maybe he is. It was just one really really bad night. And he was drunk. He had all the reason to be mad at me. And I did cheat on him. Today. Oh my god. I'm a cheater.
I begin to tear up. Maybe if I forgive him, he can forgive me. Like canceling each other's mistakes out. Right?
"It's okay." I cry and I hug him. "I forgive you."
