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• Laken Noelle •
I feel kisses going up and down my neck, while sweet words were being whispered into my ear. Words sweet enough to force chills down my body even though I'm cuddled warmly under my blanket.
I don't open my eyes to the sound of his warm mumbles, I'm still tired from the flight. Jensen laughs a little and I can picture the grin on his perfect face. "Morning Baby." Jay whispers into my ear, and I feel his lips on my ear.
I open my sore eyes, and my sight is blurry for a moment and then I see his beautiful green eyes. He's leaning on his elbow, hovering slightly above me. "What are you doing here?" I question and he rolls his eyes playfully.
"To see you, obviously." He says in a 'duh' tone, which causes me to laugh a little. "And we have to be at set in an hour." I stare up at his handsome face, and confusion is now covering his face.
"Why are you looking at me like that?" He raises his eyebrow. "You're just really pretty." I blurt out, I guess my filter hasn't turned on yet. He laughs and leans in and pecks my lips. "You're the one that is pretty." He smiles brightly down at me. Man, I love this.
•••
We're finally back in Vancouver after an amazing weekend at the panels. Jensen and I are officially official to the fans and I couldn't be more happier.
Jensen's hand is on my thigh as we drive to set and I'm honestly so excited for my scenes today. But, I'm also worried. I've done many scenes that involve high emotions, but this scene has to be perfect.
"I'm kinda upset that this scene is happening today." Jay frowns and is referring to the scene I was just thinking about. Weird. "I know, but it's just how Dean and Maya are. They'll break up and then get back together next episode." I smile at Jay slightly.
We pull into the gate where my favorite person in the whole entire world is, Jeff! "Hey Jeff! Missed you since Friday!" I smile at him and he laughs. "Missed you, too. How's it going, Jay?" He directs his attention towards Jensen.
"Wow. Got my name right this time. It's been going good, Jeff. How's LeeAnn?" I laugh at Jay's little comment towards Jeff. "She's been doing good." And with that, Jeff presses the button, which opens the gates.
•••
God. Why did I become an actress? I can't do this. I suck at acting! This scene isn't even a 'big one' it's just important to my character and her relationship. And I don't want to fuck it up!
I look into my mirror that is hanging on my trailers wall and watch myself take deep breathes. In and out. Inhale and exhale. Then the door swings open, revealing Jensen. "L, are you ready?" I shake my head and then put my head into my hands.
"What's wrong?" He asks sincere and I laugh at myself for being this over dramatic. "Whoever told me, I was good at acting, was deaf and blind." I hear Jay laugh a little and I want to punch him in the face for laughing.
"Baby. You are one of the best actors I know. You can do this. Do you want to go over lines? Maybe that will help you?" He tries to convince me and I nod. "Okay."
We position ourselves so we can begin to run line...
"Are you not going to say anything to me?" I shout. "There's nothing to say, Maya!" I flinch at his sudden harsh tone. "I'm sorry. Okay? I'm so sorry." I try to convince him, but fail. "Did you even think about anyone, but yourself? If something would have happened to you-" "But nothing did! I'm fine, Dean!" I say after cutting him off. "I can't do this anymore." He whispers. "What? What do you mean?" "I mean I'm done. I'm not going to watch you get hurt. I can't do it. And I can't do my job, if I'm constantly worried about you. And if something did happen, I wouldn't be able to live with myself, Maya." A tear falls from my cheek. "What happened to always and forever?" I whisper barely able to hold back the rest of my tears. "Forever isn't always."
"Laken. You're amazing. I don't know where you got the idea you're anything less." He caresses my hand and I smile. "Promise?" He laughs a little, before holding up his pinky. "Pinky promise." He says and we interlock our pinkies.
"I believe in you, L. You should start believing in yourself too." He gives me a kiss on the cheek before leading me out of the trailer.
•••
"You crushed it, L. Best acting I've seen in a long time." Jensen whispers into my ear, as we sit down on his couch in his trailer. "You weren't so bad yourself." I smile.
"Thank you. For believing in me." I avoid eye contact and I'm not sure why. He moves my head to face his eye. "Always. Until the end, Laken Noelle." I lean in and kiss his lips lightly.
"I love you." And he smiles at my words. "I love you more." He leans in and kisses me a bit more harsher than the previous kiss. I'm liking where this is going...
