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• Laken Noelle •
It's been a few months since the whole, 'Adam punching me in the face incident' and I took Candice's advice. To just wait. But, the waiting ends today. Today is the first day back of filming.
I'm so nervous to see Jensen again after everything. What if he hates me? Of course he hates me. I did kinda leave him after he told me he loves me. Dick move on my part. But today. I get to explain everything to him. I just hope he understands.
A lot has happened in the last few months. I finally moved out of Candice's place and got an apartment of my own. Which is pretty nice, a lot better than my old place.
I haven't spoke to Adam since he punched me. And I don't plan to, ever. Nobody else know about him punching me, expect Candice. I have basically ignored everyone, including Gen. And I feel really bad about it.
It's just that I haven't cried about Jay in a month and I know as soon as I hear Gen's voice, it will remind me of everything, with him.
I drive slowly to set, taking my time to get there. My new apartment is only 15 minutes away so the drive isn't that long as it used to be. I rest one hand out the window and the other steering the car. I'm about to see him. I'm about to see Jensen.
•••
"Good to see you, Jeff." I smile up at him. "Morning to you too, Laken." And he pushes the button to the gates. I wave good bye and pull up to my parking space. I'm here.
"Laken!" I hear a familiar voice yell and I lift my sunglasses onto my head and look around. I see Misha running towards me and I get out of the car. "Misha!" I hurriedly walk up to him and hug him. "I missed you so much! I thought you were dead, I haven't heard from you in so long." He says while breathing heavily from running and I laugh.
"Well I'm here and alive, at least I think I am." He smiles at me and we walk up to the trailers. "Have you talked to Jensen lately?" I ask cautiously and Misha shakes his head. "No one has. Nobody has talked to him since the convention."
Now I'm really worried. Nobody has heard from him? He hasn't talked to anyone? Not even his best friends? What if something happened to him? Something bad?
"I'm sure he's fine." Misha reassures me and I nod. "Well I better get a move on, I have a scene in an hour." I say and hug Misha again. "Okay. I'll see you." He says and walks in the opposite direction as me.
•••
My hair and makeup is done and still not sight of Jensen. Everybody is worried he's not going to show up and he's never missed a shooting day without telling someone.
Frank, the P.A. starts to walk up to me. "Laken. Have you seen Jensen?" He asks nervously and I shake my head. "Well can you go look in his trailer and I'll look in the others because his car is here but we can't find him." I laugh a little. "Yeah. I'll check."
I walk up to his trailer and hear a laugh from inside the trailer. What? It's Jensen, he's laughing. I knock on the door and the laughing stops. "What!" Jensen yells from the other side of the door and I open my mouth to say something but nothing comes out. Not a single word.
The door opens and Jensen comes out. "I said what-" he stops when he realizes it's me. I smile. "Jay! Geez. You worried me to death, I thought you were dead or something." I laugh and he doesn't. He looks, I don't know, I can't read his eyes. "Babe. Who is it?" A beautiful woman says and wraps her arms around Jensen.
What? I hold back the tears. Babe? There dating? "Lacy. This is um Laken. Laken this is m-my girlfriend Lacy." He says now avoiding eye contact with me. I bite my lip so I literally don't scream. I've been worried about him for months. And he was just with his new girlfriend. Girlfriend.
I turn around and start to walk away. The tears start to run down my cheeks. "Wait! L! What did you want?" He yells and I hear him run up behind me. I turn towards him and his face is shocked when he sees my face. "Um. You need to get to hair and makeup apparently no one can find you." I whisper and I'm about to turn back but he grabs my wrist.
"Why are crying? Did something happen between you and Adam?" He asks. Adam? Wait. He thinks I chose Adam. Fuck. "Wait. I don't care. I don't have to care for you. I never really did anyway. I have Lacy now and I love her." He says with a smirk. It was all a lie. He never really loved me. Shit.
•••
• Jensen Ackles •
I'm such a dick. But she deserves it. She lied to me saying that she loves me all as some sick joke to get back at her abusive boyfriend. I'm not going to be some toy she uses when she gets bored with Adam. I'm done with her. But I love her. And I fucking hate her. I hate her for making me love her.
She ran back to him. She chose him, it's always going to be him. What does he got that I don't? Why does he get her love and I don't? It's all so confusing. Damn. I wish I never met Laken Noelle. But what would my life be without her? Empty.
Lacy. She's just some random girl I hooked up with in Austin. I only asked to be my girlfriend so, I could try to get Laken out of my head. And it's not working. It's not working one bit. I have no idea why I brought her here to Vancouver, I'm just an emotional mess.
•••
• Laken Noelle •
"Gen." I say through the phone. "Laken? Where have you been? I've tried to get a hold of you so many times!" She sounds worried and I don't blame her, I basically ignored her for months. "Gen. I'm so sorry about that. Can I come over? I need to tell you everything." I say almost on the verge of tears again. "Of course, L."
•••
"And then he tells me I never meant anything to him and he never loved me." I cry as I lay on Gen's couch with my face shoved into a pillow. "L. I'm sure he didn't mean any of that. He just needs to know that whole story." She says while rubbing my back and I shiver. "What if it doesn't change his mind?" I sit up. "What if he is telling the truth?" I whisper. "What if he isn't." She says and hugs me. "You've got to talk to him. You have to tell him that you broke up with Adam."
