The Poison Of Your Love (Sweet Pea love story)

Giving in.

I sigh. Again.

"What's wrong?" -Sweet Pea

"Does something have to be wrong for me to breathe?" -me

"Sorry. But I'm worried about you"
-Sweet Pea

"Why? Beca——never mind" -me

"Mikayla what's wrong with me caring about you? Why can't you just accept it?" -Sweet Pea

"I don't want anything from you. I'm selfish and I'll break you one day. When you use your feelings in stuff, things get complicated and my life is enough of that. Plus I'm just not okay with you being a little bitch to FP." -me
😳😳😳

He just stared back at me.

Fangs drove FP's truck back to the Wyrm and dropped Sweet Pea and I at my apartment.
Now we were in the kitchen. I was drinking water, trying to get my body back up and running again.

"I'm not anyone's bitch. But if it bothers you that we care then why don't you leave?" -Sweet Pea

I stared back at him. Not for the first time in his presence, I was speechless.

I slowly put down my cup and stay silent for awhile.

"Okay" -me

I swiftly turn and walk to my bedroom. I lock myself in and go to my closet. Where I throw random clothes onto my bed and hold back my tears.

"Mikayla I'm sorry. That's not what I meant." -Sweet Pea yelled from the other side of the locked door.

It didn't matter because clearly I'm not getting better. I'm just causing trouble and getting my life more complicated.

"Go away sw—eet Pe—a" -I yelled back at him as my voice broke from holding in tears.

He wants me to leave

So I guess.

My times up.

Tears streamed down my face. But I dare not to make a sound.

I stripped off my dirty clothes and just stand in my bra and undies. I then wrap a blanket around me.

I drowned my sobs in my bed and got up to answer the door.

I stopped when I heard sniffling on the other side of the door. I bent down and looked under the door and saw Sweet Pea was sitting against the door. Crying.

"Mikayla. I don't want you to leave. We want you here." -Sweet Pea

"Sweet Pea..."-Me

"Mikayla.."-Sweet Pea

I got up and unlocked the door. I slowly turned the handle and opened the door.
There stood Sweet Pea with bloodshot puppy eyes.

I never really could, ignore his gorgeous eyes.

I walked up to him closely. And reached up to his face. He put his hands on my hips and leaned his face closer to mine. We breathed each others air and let our bodies take control.
I pressed my lips to his. We both pulled each other closer, and let our hands roam.

I quickly gasped for air between kisses but felt like it was more of him I needed.

His hands found they're way to my bare back. Soon my blanket slipped off my body. I unzipped Sweet Peas leather jacket and let Sweet Pea take it off. He pulled his shirt off too.
I stared at his body. It was so perfect and strong. I got a sudden feeling of shyness.
I pulled him back by his waistband of his jeans. Our bodies were back to being skin to skin.
I stood on my tippy toes to reach his mouth with mine. Sweet pea leaned down and picked me up with his strong arms. I had my legs wrapped around him and he had his arms holding me up by my ass. He backed me up against the doorframe and continued to please me.
He left kisses down my neck and uses his body to hold me pinned between him and the wall.
He unbuckled his belt and sent chills all over me.
I pushed him back a little. I got down from his grip and tried to catch my breath.

"I need to shower before anything" -Me

"Oh right. Of course...Could I...maybe join?" -Sweetest Pea

"Uh okay" -Me

I quickly walked to the closet and grabbed two towels. Then followed Sweet Pea to the bathroom.

He pulled down his jeans. I turned around me look into the mirror.
I looked disgusting. My makeup clearly is not meant for more than 48 hours. I made a disgusted face and turned away.
I faced Sweet Pea. He was naked.

I felt my stomach flutter. I wasn't looking but I think I would rip open if we had sex.
I just stared back at him and calmed down. It's Sweet Pea. I trust him enough.
I slowly reach for the back of my bra and try to unhook the back. It's being stubborn.

"Here I'll do it" -Sweet Pea

I nod and turn around. He touches my shoulders and then follows the straps to the middle of my back. He unhooks the clasps. He lets the straps fall from my arms.
I let my bra fall to the floor. I slowly turn around to face him. He stares me in the eyes. I pull down my underwear and let it fall to the floor.
I step to Sweet Pea and kiss him.

"Let's get clean" -Me

I sidestep him and go to the shower. I step into the tub and turn on the water.

I let the water rain over me. Warming my core and washing away my coldness. When Sweet Pea steps in, I pull him close. I lay my head on his chest and breath. He holds me close and I him.

This moment feels perfect.

I'm safe here.