The Poison Of Your Love (Sweet Pea love story)

Down from here

"Leaving without saying thank you?"
-FP

"Ha...yeah no...I was just getting my phone. But then I remembered it was in my back pocket." -Me

"Thats not what it looked like from here. But you should go back inside and meet some people. "  -FP

His cockiness and the way he made it seem like he knew me, really pissed me off.

"It's actually the last thing I want to do. But how would you know that? You've only known me for about a week. And even that you treat me like a child. I don't want to be your problem so just leave me alone!" -I turned back around and got into my car with one last look at FP, I got the hell out of there.

Once I got home. I didn't want to think so I thought of everything but the last few days.
I looked around my apartment. It was clean and quiet.

"Where the hell is J?" -Me

I took out my phone. And looked for his number. I texted him to bring me some smack.

I just didn't like my reality. I needed to out for a bit.

"Sure thing. But it'll probably get delivered from centreville. So might take awhile." -J

I smiled at my phone.

"That's fine. Come over and I'll tell you the Tea." -Me

I got up from my couch and went to unlock my door.
I sighed when the door was already unlocked.

I drank some water. Eyed the bottles of Henny and vodka. But I didn't feel them.

I went back to the couch and took my cigarettes out and lit one.
It no longer hurt. Just strong.
I closed my eyes.
My head felt better. I felt good.
Then my head started to hurt. Too much.

I lit a joint. Now this was where it was at.

The door bell rang. I opened my eyes and saw J walk in.

"Heyyyyy J" -I practically screamed.

"Started the party without me?" -J

"Trust me, the party hasn't even begun. I was waiting for you. That's where the REAL party is." -Me

"Well good. Because I'm never going to let you down." -J held up his hand when showed a very small pouch of white powder.

I smiled and J smiled back.

I didn't have to say anything. J just took the wheel and did everything for me. He mixed it and cooked it. I zoned out thinking about my last high like this.
It was great until it stretched into two weeks.

I focused back to J. He had it ready. He motioned for my arm. I was scared. This was dangerous.

"Could you get the bottles first. Just to ease into it?" -Me

"Oh fuck. Sure." -J

He got up and put the needle down.
I eyed the brown liquid.

I took my flannel off and looked at my arm for a good vein.
J put down two cups and the two bottles in front of us on the coffee table. 

"I'll have henny." -me
"Good choice." -J
He poured henny into both glasses.
Then handed me one.

"To forgetting and chilling out. Cheers!" -me

We clinked our cups and drank. I didn't stop until there was nothing in my cup.

"Okay let's do this." -me

I took the belt that J brought, and wrapped it around my left arm. He helped tighten it. I held it tight.

"I'm ready. Just do it" -me

J tapped around for my vein and finally found a really good spot. I slid it in gently and easily. I closed my eyes and pictured Sweet Pea in my head.

His eyes. His sweetness. His laugh.

I felt the warm, wholesome feeling fill me. A frenzy. A party. 🎉

I exhaled without knowing I was holding my breath. I opened my eyes and J was already done. He had taken the belt off my arm.

I sat back in the soft pillows of my couch.

"This is good" -me

"Yea..." -J

I woke up. I slowly opened my eyes.
J was on the opposite side of the couch staring at his phone.
I looked at my myself. I seemed okay.

I sat up and filled my cup with some more henny.

I looked at my phone and saw the time.

I passed out for 2 hours. I could still feel it. I wasn't myself yet.
I took a drink and almost choked. I forgot it was alcohol.

"When should we take another?" -me
"We just had a lot so I think maybe, an hour or two." -J
"I feel myself coming down already. So I think I could take another now." -me

I reached for the spoon and the baggie. But stopped when J held up his hand.

"I don't think, you should but I know I can't stop you." -J

I backed off and let him do his thing. He was right tho I wasn't in the mood to get turned down on my own apartment.

I got up from the couch and stretched. My back and neck felt like they were probably sore. But I couldn't feel it but I knew something was up. I just didn't  care.
I walked to the kitchen and look for chase. The only thing that was left was sprite which will have to do.

I brought it back to the living room and downed the rest of my henny. Which was a lot. I poured us some vodka and sprite.

I sat back and took out my phone. 4 missed calls and a text from Toni.

I need a break from them so I turned off my phone and watched J do his thang.