sooooo today i had a weird panic attack, i dont really know but i woke up late and just cried and cried. I dont really remember much excepy my mom saying good bye,to me for school. the rest of my day was all the same. I drew a bath later and didnt cut whoo
the guy i like... yeah forget him he can suck my ass, i accidentally sent the wrong text to him that was pretty harsh, meant for just a joke to my other friend and he ignored me, blocked me, read my messages but ignored them, deleted my comments on instageam, unfollowed me and put in his bio, "need a new cuddle buddy"
fucking pathetic, he cant even talk it out to make it better. I dont hate him, dont anything, i dont have a reason to. I would never insult him, because for a period of time, he actually made me smile, and get nervous, and forget what i was saying. I havent had that happen since the guys at my school are amateurs. I wouldnt forgive him though.
today, kaija left school before second period because shes sick of eighth grade and her "friends" talked about her. lowest of the low, but okay(her friends)
i wonder if she thinks about how i feel whenever she does the same thing to me... thats just me though.
i honestly hate myself but dont want people to hate me. I wanna become mute, not talk to anyone, just be me, be my own best friend. but i now need someone to feel great about myself. which is more pathetic than the guy i like soooo yeah.
right now its 11:15 PM 10/14/14
and my neighbors are fighting so their daughter is crashing with us tonight.
there you go... that was my day
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What A Catch
Non-Fiction"I've got troubled thoughts and a self esteem to match" Just a personal journal of me.
