im happy
im sad
im depressed
im a terrible friend
all i do is care about myself, not the people that care the most right now, not the most vulnerable. I have no real friends but take their crap to feel better when i cant take the time to ask how her day is, or even look at mia
she doesnt know how bad it hurt me when she said, "just friends"
or that i may or may not be there in her worst times. i want to cry when i look at her, think about her about how horrible i am to her. shes my punching bag, my back up doll, im kinda her only friend, thats just my opinion. no one gives a shit about her as much as me.
in my head my good parts of my head,
shes my all, my everything she needs someone to understand. Not someone to tell her orrible tjings but im annoying stupid and unreasonable. i dont how she puts up with me i just dont know what i feel or think i just need her to know this and its so hard to understand...
10/11/14 7:18 PM
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What A Catch
Non-Fiction"I've got troubled thoughts and a self esteem to match" Just a personal journal of me.
