What A Catch

Its the only way out

i decided that i need to think things out and ill do it right here

if i do a body cleanse, it makes my body feel better, if i do a mind cleanse, itll make my mind feel better... and i was looking up mind cleanses on Google and i had to sign up with oprah and i dont want to so, i made my own

day 3-30 come home from school and lay in bed, in the dark. i have to think things out instead of stressing shit in.

i shaved my arms,legs,underarms, and i ut on lotion, and im allergic to lotion, but i feel disgusting so i thought i should go for it and i feel good.

i dont know what to think anymore. i feel so unwanted, but then i feel so loved, idek.

i post some deep shit and everyone is like awwwwww

but thats okay

i want to go to sleep, im totally ready. this time change has gotten to me like a lot.

i did give in tonight, but thats okay , not really but whatever.

im staying at a hotel for this week cause it's my grandmas birthday and this weekend im going with meg and then next wekk im getting surgery for my tonsils and this that weekend im going to kaijas and doing a marathon, i really wanna do it. im so excited. i like it when,its just me and her, i hope no one bails on me...

and sometime this month ill clean out my room and paint it with mia and if lizzie can come cuz yeah i promised her.

im not mad at lizzie, or kaija, or mia, or mady, no one i want to have clean air between us all.

and today andrea DMed me saying she here when i need it and yeah typical uplifting stuff and i,never thoght she actually liked me but i started crying.  cuz i have no life.

i was major friend zoned by corbin, im pretty sure he will never like me, cuz he likes every girl except me and mady hahahha

11/2/14 9:46 PM