Okay so yesterday my phone died so i dont have to eat a banana.
Yesterday was mixed as everyday is. I want to show the world and all my "friends" how bad they've hurt me. I wanna kill myself but i wont be able to come back to say i told you so.
School was same old same old. Honestly I dont think I actually have friends. My friend Lizzie was supposed to come over but chose Kaija instead, shocking.
After school, kaija said me and lizzie could spend the night at her house. So i went home, played around and then got ready and called up kaija asking what the plans were. she said that she wanted lizzie to come instead. WHAT THE FUCK DOES EVERYONE ELSE HAVE THAT I DONT?! WHATS WRONG WITH ME? WHY DOES EVERYONE HATE ME?
i thought i would go and pay with my $20 i earned last week after my plans were dropped again. I needed to get out of the house instead of drawing myself a bath and cut my hips over and over and over again.
Yester day was a girl named Caitlynn's birthday and is 14 now. Her best friend Megan invited Lizzie, Kaija, and I to Frightmare.
Lizzie was supposed to come to my house this weekend but that wasn't going to happen. I saw all the seventh graders from my school and this girl i hate so much. But they werent a problem so whatever.
Megan went with Caitlynn and Lizzie went with kaija. Leaving me, the 5 wheel. Kaija and Lizzie left a bit early so that left the 3 of us. we jumped over these poles and yeah it made my night. then i went home with some Peace tea and raw ramen and then went to bed without saying a word.
best lonely/crazy fuckingnight ever

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What A Catch
Non-Fiction"I've got troubled thoughts and a self esteem to match" Just a personal journal of me.