LOVING THE BAD BOY II

Chapter 3 Postpartum

I know Danny's been doing a majority of taking care of Cayden and I couldn't of been more grateful and thankful at this very tough moment I was experiencing in my life being a young mother.
I didn't feel like myself and I didn't know why all these mixed emotions of being a mother were flooding my entire body. I knew I loved Danny I just at the time feel like I can't be this phenomenal "mother" or "girlfriend" if I don't love myself first as selfish as it sounds I don't know what happened to my confidence or self esteem.

Everyday seemed to get harder and harder as I felt overwhelmed with anxiety and insecurities. I loved my baby boy and I was beating myself up about not mentally or emotionally being okay right now for him. I was feeling a bit hopeful today as I decided to finally get out of bed and try on some clothes as I inhaled sucking my stomach in turning to the side.
I was getting use to the change in my body as I exhaled rolling my eyes putting my hair up in a ponytail.

It didn't help that I wasn't working or going to school at the moment and Danny had this amazing career and relationship with Cayden.

"I was getting changed!" I yelled startled covering up as Danny opened the door unexpectedly he closed his eyes instantly shutting it. "Sorry I should of knocked" He said from outside the door as I covered up quickly in my robe taking my hair down. "You can come in it's fine" I said playing with the ring on my finger as Danny walked in staring at me.
"Do you have make up on?" He scoffed narrowing his eyes folding his arms as I touched my lips with my fingertips. "Oh I forgot" I scoffed looking at him as he leaned against the doorway staring at me. "What?" I asked raising a brow. "Nothing been awhile" He pouted out his bottom lip shrugging. "You look nice" He cleared his throat raising his eyebrows as I smiled small. "Thanks" I took a deep breath running my fingers through my hair.

"We can do dinner or something later if you'd like?" He offered rubbing up his arm as I played with my fingers. "I'll think about it" I mumbled looking up at him as he smiled small nodding. "Sounds good" He scoffed slowly shutting the door respecting my space. I took a deep breath blowing my bangs back as I laid back looking up at the ceiling thinking to myself for a moment.

Later on

"Hiiiiii baby" I whispered smiling at Cayden holding his feet as he kicked his legs I laughed a little.
I pecked him all over as I blew air into his stomach joking around with him making him smile.
"He's so stinking cute" Sarah said pouting out her bottom lip walking in eating a bag of hot Cheetos sitting on the bed. "Thanks for babysitting" I scoffed pushing a strand of hair behind my ear. "Go get ready he's fine" Sarah said waving me off as I kissed Cayden one more time getting up to get in the shower and get ready for my date with Danny.

Getting ready

"Do I look okay?" I exhaled sliding my hands down my jeans nervously wearing something casual as I moved my lips to the side looking in the mirror debating. "Naturally gorgeous" Sarah said smiling as I laughed a little moving my bang to the slid wearing a low bun as I heard a beep.

"That must be Danny" I exhaled pacing around the room putting my earrings in, I felt like a Virgin all over again on her first date as I got butterflies.
I kissed Cayden goodbye as I placed my purse over my shoulder pacing out of the house. I slowly stopped narrowing my eyes at what looked like a new car Danny was getting out of. "What's that?" I asked slowly walking up rubbing my lips together as Danny leaned against the car glancing at me head to toe.

"What?" I scoffed looking down shyly then up at him as I slid my hands into my back pockets posing with my hip out. "Wow" He blinked a few times getting off the car as he slid his hands into his pockets walking around me slowly checking me out as I bit my lip smiling looking down. "A bad wow?" I asked shutting one eye as Danny looked into mine intensely. "You look great" He mumbled pressing his lips together as I smiled small walking to the car getting in the passenger seat.