LOVING THE BAD BOY II

Chapter 16 Heartbreak

"Some things just aren't meant to be whether you have a child or not" My mom exhaled handing me a cup of hot chocolate as I gave her a half fake smile.
As my phone chimed I took a deep breath slowly
setting my hot chocolate on the coffee table carefully looking down at my phone.

Danny 16 unread messages 24 missed calls

I rubbed my forehead overwhelmed as I clicked the messages intentionally not answering them.

Via text Danny

"Is it cuz ur fucking him or did? How the fuck could you do this to me? I never fucking was cheating on you how could you do this to Cayden?? 2 us?? You weren't thinking about me or him it's fucking unfair and unbelievable how inconsiderate you're being with your actions."

"Can u plz answer"

"Can I come see u n the baby that's all I want"

"Baby plz don't do this come home I'm sorry I never meant to hurt u"

I sniffled as I swiped a tear away from my cheek I ran my fingers through my hair tossing my phone aside. "What's he saying?" My mom asked as I scoffed wiping under my eye fanning myself off with my hand overwhelmed. "It's just too much" I cried.
"Cayden can't be around it like this isn't about us anymore it's about him and what's best for him we aren't healthy" I shrugged ranting pressing my lips together rolling my eyes.

I loved Danny so much I was becoming depressed being out of the house but I was trying to hold it together for my son. I never meant to cheat on Danny or to turned to anyone else anytime we hit rock bottom. I know I'm not perfect I'm only human I'm still developing into a young woman and potentially a young mother I'm still learning. We became so toxic I was trying to picture a better life for Cayden without Danny and I together.

"You can't avoid him you guys have a child together and being like this will only make things worse for Cayden" My mom explained as I folded my arms listening. "Maybe draw some lines and boundaries outside of the courts coparent" She raised her eyebrows. "Danny seems like a negotiable person" She mentioned as I scoffed rolling my eyes. "Maybe he'll mutually agree to keep Cayden certain days that way you can stay here and save up. Go back to school? Find a better job" She said listening things as I blinked a few times only thinking of how heartbroken I'm becoming over Danny.

"You're only twenty-two I know it hurts" She paused tilting her head as I wiped a tear away. "Trust and believe you'll probably fall in love a hundred more times and be disappointed and experience worse heart break than this, Who knows you're so young" She shrugged slowly. "You have to create a life for yourself outside of your relationship for you and Cayden" She mumbled as I took a deep breath. "It's not healthy to just cling onto this toxic relationship" She explained again as I nodded understanding her advice.

"Cayden adores Danny" I gulped. "I could never keep him away from him" I whispered messing with my fingers. "I wouldn't do that to Danny he's been through enough Caydens his world, our world " I sniffled. "Cayden needs the both of you at your most healthiest state of minds" My mom interrupted me as I cracked a fake half smile agreeing coming to a nod. "I just don't want him to do anything stupid" I gulped thinking of negative possibilities of Danny becoming concerned.

"He's a bright young man, I don't think he would do that to hisself with the way he treasures being the best dad he can be" My mom disagreed moving her eyebrows down in disappointment. "You can't hope for the worse and you can't save him if he's already emotionally damaged" She said as I glared at her for a moment. "You don't know what he's been through you don't understand him the way I do, no one does" I argued offended narrowing my eyes. "Well I'd like to believe he would keep it together with a child involved he's a grown twenty-three year old man" She scoffed raising a brow sipping her hot chocolate.

"Maybe dad would still be around if you were a bit more considerate" I huffed under my breath as she cleared her throat blinking a few times. "Your father and I are great friends we raised you kids greatly together. He moved for a better career choice and found a wonderful woman for himself unexpectedly, I do not hate him for following his dreams and finding someone that turned out good for him. I chose to stay here because I wasn't independently secure to start a new life I was a young confused nineteen year old." She ranted as I gulped. "Everyone deserves to be happy" She said. "I loved you father I still do always will. But I had to love myself more and figure stuff out for myself while raising you kids with long distance flights and lonely hotel rooms." She sniffled.

I raised my eyebrows listening not meaning to hurt her as I sighed. "I knew he was capable of something great" She smiled tapping her nails onto her coffee cup as I got up slowly walking over to cuddle her on the couch apologetically tilting my head against her.
"Sometimes when you love someone you let them go for the best and if it's meant to be it comes back" She pressed her lips together. "Or sometimes you meet again in another dimension after here, wrong time wrong place kind of thing" She scoffed shrugging as I realized she was holding onto the hope of my dad returning.

"You can love forever" She explained. "Even while apart it's okay to love someone. I have no doubt in my mind or question that your father wasn't my soulmate" She gulped looking at me from the corner of her eye. "Only time can tell and heal" She said lightly patting my knee. "Even if it doesn't come back it was apart of your life. You will love again within your job, your friends, your children and yourself or another man " She said as my heart was pounding listening to her compassion. "Love doesn't just come within a man there's all kinds of it" She said. "That's beautiful" I mumbled taking a deep breath tilting my head against her shoulder.

"Love is a beautiful and unexplainable blind thing just give it some space and time" She mumbled as we both scoffed I smiled small holding onto her arm closing my eyes.