LOVING THE BAD BOY II

Chapter 13 Remorse

I didn't realize how much I drank the night before as Danny's been giving me the silent treatment all morning and day. He called off work and I know it's partially my fault for leaving him with Cayden all night. Truth is, I needed someone to vent to I felt like Danny didn't take my feelings into consideration.

Danny paid more attention to work and Cayden its like he didn't even acknowledge the alone time we needed as a "couple". I know I'm wrong for meeting up with a few coworkers and Mason last night at a Comedy Club but I wanted to feel young and alive again. I know I'm a young mother but I still deserve to have some fun and live my life too. Danny acts as if we can't still do things to keep our relationship alive we strictly have to be parenting all the time. I'm started to wonder if he truly ever loved me although we've been blessed with Cayden. Maybe I was meant to be just a roommate he made a bet on? Maybe having our first miscarriage is what forced him to think he had to stay with me.

Maybe we're not in love after all.

"Are you going to just ignore me all day?" I exhaled getting Cayden dressed as Danny walked back and forth picking up the bedroom. "You say a lot when you're drunk" He mumbled scoffing as he shook his head finishing getting ready. I don't remember saying much or keeping track of my drinks and I know it was irresponsible of me. I truly had a amazing night although I ended up running into Mason. I know we shouldn't have spoken and it was wrong and on all counts if it was Danny linking up with his ex I'd be devastated, but I kinda missed Mason in general within all this distance and arguing with Danny.

I exhaled picking Cayden up as Danny flipped through hundred dollar bills in his wallet glancing over at me then away. "I'll be downstairs" I whispered under my breath putting the diaper bag over my shoulder carrying Cayden out the room. I began second guessing this relationship I began feeling trapped. I remember being so in love with Danny to slowly falling apart after I had Cayden.
I just felt like I couldn't love him properly until I loved myself again. We were meeting up with Cameron and Sarah at the beach as I buckled Cayden into his car seat Danny began to load the car.

"Got everything? Need any help?" I asked pressing my lips together digging my hands into my back pockets watching Danny load the trunk. "I'll manage" He mumbled slamming the trunk shut walking away as I jumped a little startled taking a deep breath getting back into the car. "Look all this arguing isn't good for Cayden" I said as Danny clenched down on his jaw twice gripping the wheel glaring out of the front window avoiding eye contact. "You don't have to be with me but we have to at least be civil for our son" I whispered under my breath emotional as Danny blinked a few times ignoring me thinking to hisself as he started the car pulling off.

The beach

"You linked up with Mason?!" Sarah whispered sipping a red bull with a straw moving her glasses down in shock. "Kate no" She whined shaking her head taking a deep breath as I patted Caydens back hearing him become fussy. "I didn't intentionally meet up with him he was there" I whispered in my defense. "You know how Danny and I been" I exhaled. "Mason and I ended things civilly" I explained as Sarah dug her hand in a bag of potato chips eating some listening.

"Do you know who you're dating?" She raised a brow scoffing in sarcasm. "Who the father of your kid is?" She asked again as I rolled my eyes. "I know I know" I exhaled bouncing Cayden up and down slowly. "I think he has a stomach ache or something" I said noticing his stomach was a bit hard. "He's always constipated" I explained trying to calm him down.
"Formula change will do it" Sarah said swiping her hands off with a mouth full of chips.

"Do something" Danny yelled opening his arms in a pissed off time hearing Cayden crying.
"I'm trying okay!" I yelled back shaking my head rolling my eyes. "Here let me see him" Sarah scoffed taking him slowly as I handed him over carefully I rubbed my hands down my face overwhelmed. "Hey buddy" Sarah whispered smiling getting Cayden to stop crying as I watched smiling small tilting my head against my hand on my cheek.

"This kid is gonna be a heartbreaker he is so freaking handsome" Sarah said shaking her head as I laughed a little. "Yeah let's hope he doesn't take after his dad but his looks" I scoffed as we both shared a laugh.
As my phone chimed I took it out my pocket sliding up with my thumb unlocking it seeing a message from Mason. "God he's texting me now" I whispered under my breath dropping my mouth to a shocking message.

Via text from Mason "And why exactly did we kiss...........?"

I gasped covering my mouth turning the phone to Sarah. She mouthed the words leaning over a little to read as she moved her sunglasses into her hair dropping her mouth. "NO" She grunted under her breath blinking a few times as I placed my hand on my forehead overwhelmed, I nervously bit down onto my nail. I didn't remember kissing Mason at all and I know sober I wouldn't have cheated on Danny but I've fucked up big time. "You know he's going to kill him right?" Sarah said raising a brow concerned as I bit my lip nervously messing with my fingers.

"Maybe don't tell him" She whispered as I rolled my eyes running my fingers through my hair fanning myself off with my hand. I covered my face getting emotional as I sniffled beginning to cry ashamed in what I've done.

DANNY

"Nah I mean like maybe here and there" I mumbled staring at the water talking to Cameron about my sex life with Kate. "Don't really have the time" I mumbled scratching by my temple licking my lips shrugging. "You guys still arguing?" Cameron asked nudging me as I stepped to the side allowing him. "Yeah man" I exhaled shaking my head as I French inhaled my cigarette exhaling to the side looking at the water.

"You're only Twenty-Three bro this is crazy" Cameron scoffed. "Maybe you moved too fast" He mentioned as I clenched down on my jaw knowing I was deeply in love with Kate. "Yeah, I don't know bro" I looked down spitting to the side kicking some sand over slowly. "She was just different everything was different with her" I mumbled smoking my cigarette. "I never felt like this before" I admitted raising my eyebrows looking over at Cameron serious then down at my footprints in the sand.

"Dude never in a hundred years would I fathom you talking about a female like this you're Danny Leyman" Cameron scoffed. "What does that even mean?" I asked offended. "Dude you can have any hot chick you want? You slaughtered half the town bro" He explained as I tilted my head a little reminiscing how many females I've slept with listening.

"She came home last night deliberately plastered dude" I mumbled shaking my head. "Took me everything to walk away" I whispered under my breath in disappointment.

"You think she's cheating on you?" He asked as I quickly looked up glaring at him spaced out a little.
"Just a thought" He scoffed as I looked away blinking a few times thinking to myself. "Nah I doubt it" I pouted my bottom lip out not second guessing it flicking a ash off my cigarette. I had faith and believed in what Kate and I had, I never second guessed her feelings not once and not now.

"Hey when you know, you know" Cameron shrugged rubbing down his jawline as I zoned out at the sunset squinting my eyes. "I knew with Sarah and we been through some shit man" He scoffed as I smirked small shaking my head. "Yeah I know I don't know how you wifed that bro" I laughed a little putting my cigarette out as Cameron laughed pushing me playfully. "She's a handful just saying" I scoffed allowing him stepping to the side sliding my hands into my swim trunk pockets. "Sometimes I just look at her like" I paused shutting on eye in the sun trying not to laugh. "Do you think before the shit you say?" I scoffed as Cameron laughed coming to a nod agreeing.

"Nah she suits you though without a doubt" I mumbled rubbing my hand up my chest as I looked over at Kate playing with Cayden. I smiled small crossing my arms as I slowly began to walk over.

KATE

"Make sure you keep up with this babe" Danny said rubbing some sunscreen onto Cayden's back as he kissed him all over Cayden began laughing. I smiled small holding Cayden as Danny made him laugh rubbing the tip of his nose against his, I gulped blinking a few times becoming upset in myself.

"What?" Danny asked glancing over at me.
"Nothing" I fake smiled sliding my hand down his cheek softly as he stared at me leaning in to kiss me as I kissed him back. We hardly were affectionate anymore being we always were prioritizing to Cayden. But kissing Danny made me realize how much I actually loved him and how quick he can make me feel all over again. The feelings were never gone I want this to work more than anything.

I couldn't possibly let this secret with Mason come out ever, I made a mistake.