Truth Or Dare

twenty one

You know I didn't mean it

Delilah baby please just answer the phone

She means nothing

I'm sorry.

Reading over my last texts from Jared reminded me of why I shouldn't have let another man in. After trying so hard to not get hurt again it felt like a giant fuck you when all I could do is sit where I was left behind the door.

Nothing that I did felt right. I just felt as if my thoughts were floating off in a sea of confusion. Why did he leave?

What did I do wrong?

For once in my life I couldn't pinpoint where I was at fault.

Usually, I found hundreds of ways to blame myself just to excuse others actions. But now- I had nothing. Aspen was gone.

He left when it got tough. Before he even realized I had a past. I frowned.

Despite the pit in my stomach, and the heavy feeling in my heart I couldn't be mad at Aspen.

Twirling a strand of my hair, I imagined how difficult he must have had it.

His life was stressful and heartbreaking. Taking on a relationship with him wouldn't be easy. Aspen has problems. Somehow I wouldn't ask for him to be any other way.

No matter how tough things got between us, I felt compelled to stay and try to fight with Aspen.

Things between us seemed to get serious in my head before I'd even noticed it happening. I never thought I'd allow myself to like someone again.

I knew I was being dramatic. But after being left by my father and Jared it was hard to ignore the sting of being left again.

In all my thoughts, the sound of my phone ringing with a text echoed in the silent home.

Even though all I wanted to do was have a pity party of my own, curiosity got the best of me so I scooted myself over to my table. Hope filled me that it could be Aspen explaining that he left pizza rolls in the oven yesterday and that's why he left.

Dissapointment filled me when I didn't see anything remotely involving Aspen on my screen.

"Rena just found a dress that would look hot on you at the party;)" -Love of My Life

A strange lack of emotions remained in my body by the time I finished reading her text.

It couldn't be so bad to just go to a party, could it?

Plus I needed to get my head off these sad thoughts. If nobody stopped me, I'd spend the rest of my summer moping around about my emotional issues.

Without a second thought I responded telling her to get the fuck over here and ran upstairs to get ready.

By the time we had finished getting ready, I managed to forget about Aspen. That was partially because of Rena's before party drinks that consisted of cheap vodka.

The girls took me in as a 4 and I left that house as an 8. I wondered if Stormy was a plastic surgeon sometimes.

At this moment, we sit in Stormy's beat up Volkswagen outside of a large familiar home. Through the darkness outside I spotted many hazy teens who looked out of their mind. I was smart enough to know they had more in their system than Budweiser.

The sun was just setting, making the hues of orange flicker on the surface of the car I sat in. Rena was currently screaming to Childish Gambino as Stormy calmly slammed on the brakes of the car. Force from the stop pushed my face right into the passenger seat window.

A groan sounded from behind me.

"Stormy if my entire face of makeup is on the back of this seat I'll kill you." Rena yelled over the music.

I giggled and felt like I was floating from the drink Rena slipped me. My mind swirled dizzily from impact.

Before I knew it, Rena and Stormy were walking towards the party. My phone continued vibrating alerting me of a notifications but I ignored it. Hopping out of the car happily, I walked towards the home with confidence provided by alcohol.

My hips swayed as I stepped in my old vans. Fabric from my black dress tugged at my butt making me conscious of my cheeks being on display.

Teens littered around the rooms of the home enjoying themselves. They laughed, they kissed, and they danced. I wondered how lonely they really were beyond that happy facade.

Stormy disappeared outside leaving me alone in the crowd.

My eyes scanned for familiar faces but I ended up finding people who I hadn't talked to in nearly a month. I felt out of place. People walking by said their hellos and I responded enthusiastically trying to maintain relationships.

Without realizing, I admired the inside of the place. The home was gorgeous but there was no trace of people living there. No pictures of family, no paintings, nothing but tastefully painted walls and modern furniture. Red cups were scattered on the floor being the only mess. A smashed vase was being swept up by a tired man who seemed annoyed. The man looked up at a shirtless guy and scrunched his nose up with attitude. I held back my laugh.

His eyes scanned the room with disgust before he grabbed his trash bag filled with glass and walked into a dark hallway.

After snapping out of my trance with the man I left the room, wandering to the pool silently.

I didn't feel like being social tonight.

Yellow and orange lights reflected on ripples inside the pool. Oddly I felt at peace staring into the black and yellow depths.

Feeling lighter than I did earlier, I sat down at the concrete edge of the pool forgetting my worries. I was okay.

The water splashed gently around my knees that laid closest to the water cooling me off. Teens filled the pool slowly toppling after one another. Not wanting to stare, I watched the sky.

Stars glittered down on me as if they watched my every move. Each individual floating ball of fire looked brighter than usual. A silhouette covered my sight just as I relaxed making me jump in my place.

"Delilah? I didn't know you'd be here." A deep familiar voice surrounded me.

Their presence went to my right and I didn't have to look down to see that Daniel was sitting next to me now.

"Hey Daniel. It's been a while." I greeted him, but I was far away from Daniel mentally.

"Nobody told me my party would be graced by the Delilah." He said jokingly.

"Ah well I sent my servants to inform you. Guess I'll have to behead them." My gaze finally left the stars and went to Daniel, who was just as handsome as the last time I'd seen him. Though he was attractive, Aspen was miles ahead of him. Stupid Aspen.

Daniel now had platinum hair making the blue in his eyes stand out. My breath hitched in my throat.

"Want a drink?"

A/N

I'm so sorry for the late update. There's so much going on right now and on top of that I'm working on other unpublished books.

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