Night Sky

46

Namjoon’s POV

I closed the door in a daze. I can still feel my heart hammering inside my chest. My hand is still clutching the doorknob slightly. I allowed myself to process what just happened. She broke up with me. Yumi broke up with me.

I closed my eyes and forced myself not to cry. No, I won’t cry. I’m stronger than this. I know she’s lying. I know her enough now to know that getting married is just some stupid excuse for her to break up with me. But the moment the words left her mouth, it’s like my soul left my body as well.

I thought I could convince her. I thought that if I could just assure her that I can give her everything she wants, she’ll stay with me. But who am I kidding? From the start, I knew this was too farfetched. I got caught up in the idea that we can be happy together. But maybe that’s just it. Maybe that was just fate’s way of letting me have a taste of what happiness is.

I forced my body to move. The feeling returned to my legs and I found myself walking back to my hotel room. My mind is so fuzzy with pitch black nothingness that the only thing I could think of right now is pack up and leave.

Once I opened mine and Tae’s shared room, I see him sitting by the window concentrated on his phone. I walked inside the bathroom, took my toiletries and started to fix my things.

“Oh, hyung! I didn’t hear you come in.” Tae said enthusiastically at me. He had a wide smile on his face and I just stared at him.

“How’s Yumi, hyung? I was thinking we could go grab dinner together and then tomorrow I could…” I tuned him out and started packing my things. It feels like I don’t have control over my body. My head is only screaming of an escape. I need to go. I need to breathe. New Caledonia’s air is slowly suffocating me.

“Hyung!” I snapped out of my thoughts and looked at Taehyung blankly.

“Why are you packing your things? Oh, are you moving in with Yumi?” I turned away from him and continued folding my clothes.

“Fix your things, Tae. We’re leaving.” I did not bring a lot so I was able to finish up fast. Once I was done, I fished my phone out of my pocket and searched for the earliest flight we could book.

“Unless you want to stay? We still have a few days before the next concert.” I told him while raising my eyebrow. I can see the confusion on his face. I think the realization must sunk in when he sighed and did not say anything more. I mentally thanked him for not pushing it. I don’t think I’ll be able to function properly if I break down right now.

“I’ll go grab my things.” He said softly and I nodded.

Once I was able to book our flight which is later tonight and Taehyung was done with his packing, we went out of our room to make our way to the airport. I know this is bad. I know suppressing these feelings will eventually catch up to me. But I can’t. I can’t do that right now. I can’t afford to not have a sound mind when I know I will be needed by my members once I’m back in Korea.

After giving back the key cards on the receptionist area, I see Ellen and another tall guy approaching our way.

“Hey, superstar.” Ellen greeted me with a smile. I can see the new guy’s eyes shifting from us to Ellen.

“Hey, where are you going?” She said while walking closely to us, eyes on our suitcases.

I looked at her with a nonchalant expression and breathed deep. “We still have a schedule. We need to catch the quickest flight possible.” I can hear Tae’s defeated sigh from behind me. Everything about that is not true. But if this is the only way for me to at least make myself feel better right now, I would not hesitate to come up with an excuse.