Rantopia

YOUNG ADULT TIME

I'm going to be 17 in 13 days. Still haven't learned how to drive yet or gotten a job, I realized I'm just not ready yet I'm used to being in my mom's shadow. One part of me is ready to move out because of having to do chores and commands from my mom usually at the wrong moments, but like I always say I'm not ready for the real world (adulthood). I like being a kid but sadly it all comes to an end. I HOPE HOPE HOPE most things go my way. I really do. We all have our lives planned out for ourselves but we don't know what's gonna happen at all. I have no idea what my future holds. I'm scared. The real world is scary. Bills bills bills. Rent. Car mortgage. Gas money. Taxes. It's a lot. I know I'm a smart and beautiful young lady with an amazing personality; who will continue to blossom more and more everyday and have self-love for myself. I try to continue my writing routines and stuff like that because I don't want to lose a passion for writing and reading, by replacing it with slacking. That's not good. I can't throw away the things I love. I need to keep going instead of being lazy, going to watch YouTube, or movies like I always do. I always say I need to keep doing these things too and then go back to slacking. Then I tell myself how am I supposed to be a best selling author if I barely write anymore? I've kinda lost confidence in my writing, sometimes I feel like it doesn't sound good, or I haven't written anything in awhile so I forgot how certain characters act and what was supposed to happen after another event in the story. It's annoying having to reread what I wrote days ago just to remember what was supposed to happen. I NEED to get back on track it's ridiculous. Life is a lot but I'll be ok.👏💙.