Crumbling Paradise

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Jahseh
Drowning.

That's exactly what I was feeling currently.

Ever felt like you're trapped under water and there are people talking above you?

Again that's exactly what I was experiencing right now.

I could hear voices in the distance. People were arguing and yelling but I couldn't make out what they were saying. My body felt a thousand times heavier than normal. I couldn't move. No matter how much I tried.

Something was wrong.

I could feel it.

Noises of things crushing started to feel the air. I focused on opening my eyes. I needed to know what was going on around me. I then felt hands on me and just like that my body started to respond. My eyes opened coming face to face with Stokeley. He was talking more like yelling but my brain was taking it's time to process his words.

Then it happened.

The next minute I was on the floor my right cheek burning in pain. Huh? What just happened? I must be in a fucking nightmare. Stokeley did not just slap me. I know he didn't. Before I finished that thought I was being grabbed again. It was Stokeley. He had tears running down his cheeks. He was yelling again his hand on my throat really tight. Not the normal sensual way. The choke with intent to kill kind of hold. I felt my air supply decreasing till I couldn't breathe. What the fuck was happening? Just as my vision was fading,he let go. My lungs burned and I coughed violently falling on my knees. I continued coughing as my body tried to recover from the lack of oxygen.

"Yoh! Stoke what the fuck! You tryna kill him?"

Jared. I knew it was him without looking up. I rubbed my sore neck sitting up just to see Stokeley fighting to get loose so he can charge at me. I crouched back. I've never been afraid of Stokeley all the years I've known him. He's never really given me a reason to but right now i'm beginning to reconsider that. The look of anger in his eyes and his body language overall right this moment was enough to do that.

"Let me go Jared! Let me kill him! Nigga move!" Stokeley yelled still trying to get at me.

What got him like this? What did I do? My cheeks felt wet and that's when I realized I was crying. Looking around I couldn't recognize where I was. It was just a room with everything turned up side down. But this wasn't my room.

"Stokeley! Stop! You already fucked up the other dude." Jared said really struggling to hold back an angry Stokeley." I think he dead bruh."

Dead? Who?

"He better be dead! Fuck nigga! Ion give a fuck!" Stokeley yelled."Move!"he pushed Jared off latching at me. I yelped when he grabbed me off the floor hitting me across the face again.
" How could you do this to me Jahseh!"he yelled pushing me against the wall." I gave you everything! Every fucking thing you ever asked for! You know how I am! You know all about my insecurities and after all that you still did this shit!"he yelled his voice raspy and hoarse from how hard he was yelling. "Why? ANSWER ME DAMMIT!"he punched the wall next to my face. I flinched moving my head to the side. He let out broken sobs making my heart break further. What did I do?

"Why Jah? Why?"I faced him again making eye contact but all I could see was raw pain and disappointment. Only time I ever saw him like this was when he opened up to me about his past.
"Wasn't I good enough? I thought we was good. Six years! Six fucking years and you pull this on me? "He got angry again. " How long you been making a fool of me? Huh? How long?"he grabbed me again by my shoulders. His grip was so tight that I whimpered. " Talk! You had the energy to cheat! Now I want answers before I kill you."