Crumbling Paradise

/08/

Just a filler

Jahseh
"I'm sorry about Gazzy. Clearly he thinks you agreed with everything that happened. I mean i'm also surprised you came. I thought you belived them too."i explained to Micheal who was seated across from me. Gazzy had stormed off refusing to be on the same room with Michael.He just shook his head a frown on his face.

"I would never."he grabbed my hands squeezing them." But i'm shocked. Out of the four of us you the only one who had his shit together. Everything seems to always work out for you-well untill recently."sympathy dripped from his voice. I subtly pulled my hands away from his standing up from the bed. I was suddenly feeling antsy and i was definately hating this pregnancy. I barely felt like myself.

"Thats not true Mikey. Taymor is a whole lawyer and Gazzy is making it in the industry aaaand not forgetting he's happily married. You-"

"Have been a failure over and over."he cut me off. I frowned going back to sit next to him but as soon as i sat i was standing up again. I just placed my hand on his shoulder giving it a caring squeeze.

"Thats not true Michael. You have a job,you have a stable life and more importantly you have a man that loves you. In short you have everything i dont right now."i managed a sad smile. He smiled back his whole face lighting up.

"You right."he beamed standing up to hug me. For some odd reason my breath hitched and I  instantly stepped away from his embrace." You okay?"he frowned.

"Yeah. Its just your cologne. Cant stand it. This pregnancy is fucking with me."i grabbed at my hair putting more distance between us.

"Pregnancy!"he chocked out eyes widening. I nodded a bitter laugh falling off my lips. Anger flashed on his face.

"Its not what you think. I just- Michael-please listen! Don't go!"but it was too late. He was already slamming the door in my face.

"Say mane, Who dat slamming doors and shit?"i jumped at the Louisiana accented voice." Whatchu you cryin' foe?" Kentrell pointed out frowning.

"Nothing."i huffed walking around him back to my room. My mother had already shipped all my things to Florida ahead so all we had to do was board the plane tomorrow.

"You sure you straight?"he followed me to the room. I wiped my eyes furiously but the tears continued to spill. I know Kentrell thought of me as a weakling because of the number of times i've cried infront of him.

"Yes."i said plainly but still my tears continued to spill. It's just that telling Michael about the pregnancy and actually having to explain how comes i was pregnant was the whole issue. Plus,i know he'll tell Stokeley and that is what i'm afraid off.

"Yoh eyes leaking though."he sat down next to me allowing me to get a whiff on that curiously delicious scent of his.

"No they not."

"Hmph."we sat in silence till i started to sniffle. I didnt want to cry infront of him any more but i still didnt want him to leave. See this baby messing with my whole vibe." Say,what did the green grape say to the purple grape?"he suddenly broke the silence. I frowned turning look at him.

"What?"the confusion in my voice was evident.

"What did the green grape say to the purple grape?"he repeated himself not looking at me but at the floor. I made a face trying to make sense of his question?

"Uhm-i dont know?"i sniffed grabbing my handkerchief to blow my nose.

"To breathe."he said simply like it was the most obvious thing in the world.

"Huh?"

"To breathe. 'Cause its purple."he turned my way giving me an expectant look. However i was frowning since i couldnt make sense of whatever he just said.

"Wait? Are you....."i trailed off.
" Are you tryna make a joke. Was that supposed to be a joke?"i trailed off amusement in my voice. He gave me a look silently asking if i was dumb.

"Yee' but you 'bout slow assa bitch."i found myself chuckling at that before a slight laugh followed.

"Oh my god. Thats the worst joke i ever heard in my life."more laughter followed as i replayed the supposed joke.

"Yoh ass shole cackling and allat."he was grinning at me.

"Cause that was sooooo bad. Who would laugh at that lame shit?"

"Aaah you."he suddenly poked my nose. I cringed sticking my tongue out pretending to be grossed out but my cheeks was heating up." You gotta gorgeous smile on you slime."now my whole face was heating up." Life issa bitch on gawd but ion think you should give up just yet." I broke eye contact almost instantly. My eyebrows knitted together.

"What did i do to deserve this though?"consequently a frown found its way on my face as the despair i was desperately trying to suppress begun to surface.

"My house don' got no door nor window."he said abruptly again.

"You're weird."i shook my head.

"Er wrong. Is an egg."he reached over poking my nose again." You go this way an' i go this way meet up at the front."he smirked as i struggled think.

"Uuhm....a....a....this aint a joke. Its hard. I' m literally blank."i kicked my feet out in defeat.

"Issa belt."he reached over poking my nose again." Slow assa bitch."he let out a hearty laugh.

"Pshh i'm not slow. I'm a whole teacher and You just made all that up anyway."i rolled my eyes.

"Slow."he fake yawned standing up from my bed.

"You're leaving?"i asked quickly almost desperate. My face begun to heat up again this time due to embarrassment.

"Yeah."and with that  he was out the door. A slight pout formed on my lips. I didn't want to be alone because my thoughts would just wonder to the ruins that is currently my life.

"How are you feeling my sunshine?"my mother walked in a bright smile on her face. I deliberately ignored her question as I moved the covers on the bed an getting under them. She sat next to me her eyes instantly dropping to my abdomen.

"Sooo...."she started the same smile in her face. "Have you decided about the baby?"she asked moving her hands restlessly.

"I'm giving him up mom."

"No!"she shrieked startling me.
"I mean....uhm that would be cruel. You know how lousy the system is....uhm Kentrell.....yes...he-he will take the baby...really wants one. You should consider it."she sounded desperate and was overall acting very strange.

"Mom you okay?"I raised my eyebrows at her. She cleared her throat her hands moving to rub over her neck nervously.

"Of course. I'm fine...just consider it okay. Please baby."she flashed that bright smile she came in with. Now I was even more suspicious of her. I didn't reply though. She sighed kissing my forehead." Get some rest. We leaving tomorrow."with one last longing look at my stomach she reluctantly left the room.

Being left there alone again raised my paranoia. In an attempt to distract myself I turned on the tv but that to my dismay wasn't at all helpful. In fact it just threw me off completely.

BREAKING NEWS
Jarad Higgins.....Ski mask's younger brother found dead in his apartment-

STOKELEY!