Crumbling Paradise

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Soo i been all over the place lately😢
I couldn't bring myself to right shit and I'm sad about that but it's still something. Ignore mistakes

Also every update from this one are dedicated to my slime

That_Panda_Queen

Jahseh.....

“Don’t talk to me like that I’m still your mother!” My mom screamed veins popping out the side of her neck.

“That still don’t give you the right to interfere with my life like that mom! Why would you try to take away the one person that actually wanna be with me through all this?” I yelled back.

“Do you seriously hear the bullshit coming out your mouth Jahseh? You just met him literally  two week ago!” she wheezed looking like she was gonna hit me any second. “You don’t need him! I’m, here aren’t I? Why you acting like you all alone in this? What I’m I Jahseh? A potato?” she threw one of the couch cushions at me. “I gave birth to you boy! The whole nine months and every day since then I’ve just been taking care of you till you decided you was all grown and didn’t need your mother anymore .I’ve been there through the bullshit you put me through as a teenager and I’m still here now that you’re all grown up and your life is still upside down! I’ve always been here so what you need a stranger for? Huh? Answer me!” she pushed me getting all in my face. I kept quiet.

“Ms. Cleo please calm down.” Kentrell spoke up for the first time in the thirty minutes or so that we’d been arguing. She turned to him glaring so hard.

“You shut the fuck up! This between me and my son. How we’re even arguing about you is beyond me.”she hissed turning to me again. How is she even more mad than I am and she the one that lied?

“I-I..I need him ma…you just don’t understand.” I mumbled looking down at the floor.

“You don’t need him Jahseh! That’s just your pain and loneliness talking but you’ll get over it. All you need to do right now is focus on your child. Nobody else!”

“My child?! A child I that I didn’t even want in the first place! A child that ruined any chance I ever had with Stokeley! A child that ruined my fucking life?! Is that what you want me to focus on-.” A hot slap landed on my cheek snapping my head to the right. I bit my lip holding my stinging cheek as I turned to look at my mother again. Tears blinded my vision as we just stared at each other. She was breathing heavily the anger swimming in her eyes radiating so hotly. She lifted her hand again ready to strike me again but only folded it into a fist then pointed at me.

“That child is stopping me from whooping yoh ass.” And with that she stormed out the house slamming the door so hard the pictures around the living room shook. I let out a shaky breath slowly sitting down on the couch. I don’t care what she says. She was still wrong for that.

“You- uh- you okay?” Kentrell asked cautiously.

“No. No I’m not.” I admitted wiping my face and taking a deep breath. My cheek still hurts and together with the headache my head was spinning. “I…sorry you had to witness that.” I sighed finally looking at him. I looked away. The look in his eyes said he was feeling sorry for me and pity was the last thing I needed right now.

“Say, you want a banana?” he asked sitting down next to me. Huh?What? I frowned looking back at him.” I have a banana in my pocket if you want it.”he shrugged reaching up to rub his neck nervously.

“I…what. No. Why would I want a banana? Matter of fact why do you have a banana in your pocket?” I was still so confused. He shrugged starting to rummage through his pockets. Sure, enough he whipped something out of his pocket but it was no banana.