Crumbling Paradise

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I don't know how to feel about this one.😩 I think it was trash-not my best work but I'm sad about Juice Wrld. I wrote the previous chapter before he died and now that he's really gone I feel guilty too😞 I'm also praying for Ski. He done lost another close brother. I do hope he's okay tho wherever he is.✊

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Purple love for SkiWrld💜

Jahseh
"Stoke? Baby? I'm here..."I whispered softly caressing his cheek with my pointer finger. Tears blurred my vision as I struggled to keep them in. A stinging pain was eating at me deep within my stomach as I watched how restless and troubled he looked. He was looking super tired and broken. I knew for a fact what Jared ment to Stokeley so losing him definitely broke him in more ways than one.

I know it was crazy to sneak into Michael's house to come see him but I had to. I knew he needed me at this time and I wasn't just gonna let him face his loss alone.  Despite the restraining order I still came to see him. It didn't even matter that I was committing two crimes already.

"Jah?"he croaked out his voice all scratchy. I sat up realizing he was waking up.

"Hey."I tried smiling but that only triggered my tears to spill. I looked off the side quickly wiping them away and tried so hard to make them stop. After a minute or two I looked back at him biting my lower lip to try and keep them tears in. He sat up ignoring my presence then he just gave me a blank stare. Eyes cold yet so full of sadness.

"Uhm-I-I'm sorry-"I started but stopped because my voice was trembling. These damn tears! Fuck!it felt so damn good to see him again especially after the heart attack scare. I just wanted to hug him and get lost in his warm embrace but that could wait.
" I'm sorry-about Jared."I managed to finally get out. This time I just allowed my tears to flow non-stop. Jared was a special someone not just to Stokeley but to me as well. He wasn't just my brother in-law but my friend as well.

"Get out. I don't wanna see you." Stoke spoke calmy swatting my hand away from his face. And when I say that shit hurt.

"Stoke please.....I'm sorry. I-I-"

"I said leave."his voice cracked this time and I could tell he didn't really want me to leave. I sat up hugging him. He tried fighting me but I didn't let go unil he finally stopped fighting me and just broke down.

".....my bro-my brother."he cried holding onto me this time. I shut my eyes tight my own tears spilling more and more.

"I know."I whispered rocking us slightly. He didn't deserve to die so young.

"I lost him too...mayne I can't do this anymore.....I'm so fucking tired of losing people I care about. First it was you and now Jared! I can't take this!I'm tired..."he let out broken sobs that broke my heart in return.

"Shhhh you didn't lose me Pokeley."fuck my heart hurts. I hate seeing him like this. So lost and broken." I'm still here."I mumbled moving my hands to his locks. It always calmed him when I massaged his scalp. It was working because his breathing was stabilising and his cries were reducing to silent sobs.

"What the fuck are you doing here?"I heard making me break away from the embrace.

"Mikey."

"You have some nerve showing up here after what you've done! Get the fuck out! Security!"

"Michael stop! His brother just died. I'm here for Stoke."I tried stopping him from yelling for security.

"No fuck that! You should've thought about that before you fucked around and got pregnant!"he yelled pointing at me so much venom dripping from his voice. Why was he so angry?

"Y-you-you're pregnant?"my heart dropped right out my ass at that hurt voice. I faced Stokeley and the raw pain in his eyes at that revelation took my breath away. Kill me now.

"Is that true?"he asked staring at me. I looked down playing with my fingers. My tears spilling even more violently than before. "ANSWER ME THE FUCK!"

"YES!"I blurted out my heart beat so loud in my ears

"Fuck!"he cussed clutching at his locs and pulling them.

"Stokeley I never wanted any of this to happen."I fell on my knees on the floor. What did I do to deserve this? Why was this happening to me?

"There. That's him."I looked up to see two police officers. My eyes widened and I stared at Michael who stood there giving me the meanest look his fake lipped face could manage.

"How could you?Michael?"

"Take him away officers. He's violating a restraining order." Michael continued pointing at me. Before I could even resist I was being roughed up and held against the floor. I tried moving in a way that I wouldn't hurt my stomach but the officers only roughed me up harder mushing my face against the floor.

"Stop it! Bitch you're hurting me!"I shoved them back.

"Stop resisting arrest!"a gun was shoved in my face as they both held me down.

"I'm not resisting arrest you fucking bread head! I'm pregnant!"but they weren't listening. They were busy roughly patting me down obviously looking for weapons. One of them had his knee against my lower back pressing me to the floor while the other was doing the patting." I said I'm pregnant and you're hurting me!"I tried again full blown worried about the safety of my child.

"Shut the fuck up!"one of them slapped me a ringing sensation filling my ear as I rested my head on the floor.

"Get the fuck off him!"I heard Stokeley say and soon enough I wasn't being held down anymore. I instantly sat up cradling my body.

"Sir let us do our job."

"Leave this to me now get out!"

"Stokeley let them do they job. This bitch shouldn't be here after everything he's done!" Michael chimmed in.

"I said I'll take care of it. Leave. Get the fuck out or I swear to go....."I knew that tone all too well. Stokeley never responded well to any man who tried to touch on me any type of way. His behavior was lowkey annoying at one point but right now I'm really grateful for it.

"Sto-"

"You-shut the fuck up."he silenced Michael and I would have laughed at the face he made if this was in another life.

"Okay. You can go officers." Michael said to the men and they left. Stokeley turned to me mad as ever. He then crouched down to my level on the floor.

"If I EVER see you again in my vicinity or even smell you around me I will fuck you up. I mean it Jah. Stay the fuck away from me."he spoke slowly a finger pointed at me. No he doesn't mean that. "I never want to see you again. You hear me."and with that he stood up returning to his bed and laid down facing away from me.

"Get up." Michael pulled me pushing me towards the door and this time I didn't resist. Deep down I knew I  had lost Stokeley and there was nothing I could do.

"Walk faster we ain't got all day." Michael pushed me making me stop." Why'd you stop? Keep moving sis."

"Why are you doing this?"I asked him because I was honestly confused on how he could just switch up like that.

"You of all people know how much I care about Stokeley and the way you hurt him wasn't fair. Jahseh having a whole baby against him that's just fucked up and let's just say I don't fuck with you right now."he said grabbing my hand and pulling me to the door." Stay out our lives or you'll pay."and with that he opened the door pushing me out. I was still stuck on his words. There was something about them but I couldn't even focus on that as I was attacked by paparazzi. Flashing camera lights every where and so many questions.
Yet again I was stranded and trapped by these gossip hungry and ruthless beast. That was until I was being dragged out of it and shielded by a strong lean body.

"Say mayne you about stubborn assa goat."That's all I heard before I collapsed tuning everything out.