AS LONG AS I WAKE UP TODAY

•the thirty-second•

"Just let me out... just let me out!". I shoot off from the sofa and ran to the door.
Stumbled to the ground. My ankle was too weak to run, even the walk was hard. I stood up limped to the other side of the room towards the door. My legs gave out. I sank to the ground leaned against the metal from the door. I screamed all the air from inside my lungs.
"Get me out!".
"I wanna go home i just want it to be over!". I was pounding my hands on the metal.
Shawn wrapped his arms around my waist dragged me away from the door.
"Lilia".
"Let me go let me go let me go!". I Fought back, tried to drag myself back to the door. But Shawn's weight was too heavy for me to drag along.
"Lilia stay calm... what's wrong".
"Let me go, Shawn". Tried to peel his arms off my waist. I was broken...
"Shawn, why do you care? You don't even care. you want to please me to make me like... you not to be nice!" I just sank to the ground. He was tired too so he sat on his knees layed me down on the ground.
I curled up into a ball.

I just want a hug right now... i want Demian here now...

I turned my back to him. Shivered without even noticing. He rubbed my waist softly.
"Lilia... what's wrong?".
"I can't tell you".
"Why?" He asked, removing my baby-hair from my sweaty neck. "God Shawn leave me alone!".
"The last time i did that they shot you".
"It was just a pain shot". I pressed my knees closer to my chest.
"You aren't the same as before".
"You aren't..." i trailed off. In my dream, i know everything that says that I'm not angry at him.

"Come on we go back to sleep".
"Let me".
"You really wanna sleep on the floor?". I looked down at my knees. I hears him walk away, he lay down on the sofa.
I was crying softly. I really sounded like a baby animal, chocking. I tried to stop because it was really gross and weird.
"You're sure you don't wanna sleep on the sofa?".
I really wanted to but i didn't want him to think that i lied before. I really didn't know an answer.
I just hummed in response. Shawn let out his breath, walked to me and crouched down. He slipped his arms around me, i was too weak to pull him away.

As soon as i lay on the sofa i fall sleep. My mind was too confused to process a nightmare.

Shawn's breath blows down on my nose. I opened my eyes Shawn's face a few inches apart from mine. his curls stuck to my sweaty forehead. I just started not really having an opinion on him... i just stared.
I sigh and tried to sit up without waking him. His arm lay over my shoulder. His fingers were soiled with mine.

I heard footsteps coming close to the warehouse. I heard voices but i know them i had heard them more in the hallways. I just couldn't make up who is we're. Fade sounds of gunshots firing reaches my ears.
"Shawn".
No reaction.
"Shawn".
He was still sleeping.
"Shawn!".
"What?" He asked.
"They are here!". He covered my mouth with his hand.
"Then keep your voice low Understood?". I nogged slowly.

I could literally hear a bone break when the bullet hit through.

We lost the thirty-second.