AS LONG AS I WAKE UP TODAY

•the epilogue•

Shawn

I ran through the halls gawking for her.

She can't lose her mind right now she can't kill somebody right now!

I heard a gunshot a few second a scream... Her scream the last few days I am able to recognize even her scream. I ran in the direction of the sound. Something was thrown against a wall and landed hard on the ground.

As soon as I reached her he turned her head to me. And collapsed to the floor.
I ran to her and hugged her as tight as i could.
"Shawn i..."
"Ssstt...i know i know you don't have to say it i know".
I took her face in my hands and whipped her tears away, looking in her sad eyes. And all i see was a broken girl, who lost her friend. Her best friend I've heard that they know each other for 10 years.
"I did it out of love... Because i love him... Please, Shawn, don't hate me so many people already do".
"Hey, i don't hate you okay i...". I cut myself off.

That's the last thing she wants to hear from me.

She pressed her head in my chest cried softly. I combed my finger through her light brown hair with natural highlight in between it is so stunning. She is stunning.

No not just stunning she is incredibly beautiful... Delightful.

I glanced at her bloodshot ice blue eyes. And tried to find the Lilia i met at trail training. The girl i fell in love with after i realized how Jaysky and i aren't meant to be.
She is beautiful but broken. And sadly i can't fix her this time.
I lifted her between my legs to pull her closer, She is as light as air.

I pressed my lips on the top of her head softly I wasn't really kissing her head it was more like resting them against her skin.

"I don't want this anymore I want to go home".
"We are gonna get home it's just us...we are gonna get home".
"I want Demian back".
"You have him,".
"No, i shot him!".
"You have him here... If you're heart, " i placed my hand carefully on the spot from her heart.
Her heart rate speeded up.
"Hey calm down".
I lay my other hand only own heart and inhaled for a few seconds tried to make her follow my lead. And breath as one with me.
After a minutes chocking on her sobs, i managed to calm her down. She lays her head on my hand which was resting on my heart.
I stroke her hair with my free hand. Pressed my nose against her forehead traveled all over her face In ordered to calm myself.

"What are you doing?".
"...sorry, ".
she had still a private zone of comfort. I pulled away until i created a distance from a few inches.
"Shawn, i asked what you are doing i didn't tell you to stop".
"Uhm... I was trying to calm myself".
"Okay...".
"You wanted me to stop right?".
"What no... I liked it. it was really nice and calming".
I pressed my nose back against her cheek.
"You feeling better now?".
"Yea".
She pressed her nose against my cheek.

Behind us, i heard a riffel being located. Instead of looking back. I pressed Lilia against me. I wanted to hold on to her a little longer before she is gone too.

She was dragged up from my arms rudely by one of the shooters.
He pointed his riffel at her.
"Shoot him" he demined her.
He pushed a gun in her hands.
I clawed to the gun Lilia has trowed to the wall took it in my hands and pointed. The gun at the shooter who had still his riffel on her. The other shooter dragged his rifle against my the side of my head. my heart rate speeded up. I stopped breathing.