Love Bites; Bullets

I Need Her

I was at School, off and on. Whether I stayed home, in class, or skipped classes, I was still extremely miserable and lonely. I feel so damn bitter and betrayed still. Being told I'm a certain way by certain people in my life, never does it bother me. But for some reason, it tore me inside to hear Casey tell me I was embarrassing. The last time I was told that was by mom as a very young kid, can't remember exactly what age or how but I just remember.

There is no getting around the fact that I love Casey more than life itself. And nothing will fully drive me away from her. I wiped my tears and moved on, knowing that it was only a matter of time before she came crawling back. Knowing how much of a sweet, kind, and beautiful girl she is. As much as I hate myself and everything, and I would never lose Casey. Whether she likes it or not, we will be in love, I can't stand to lose my fucking grip.

I saw Casey only a few times walking by, and at times would even glare it me looking hurt. I don't know if she was hurting for me, or was just in general upset. Navigating through life was even more difficult than before, I got back into shoplifting and fighting in alleyways. Well, this is what happened the night I got charged and put on probation again.

Going to a convenience store, I ran out with some snacks stuffed in my coat. Little did I know, the same cop from the rooftop was undercover outside the store and tackled me immediately to the ground before the clerk could dial shit. 
"No good Glantis! I missed you!" He said whilst handcuffing me to the car.
"Not good to see you too pitbull." I said.
"Hardy har har! Let's go." He says and shoves me in the back of the car.
"Take me home!" I said as I began to make pig squealing noises.
"Not this time asshole! To the jailhouse we go!" He shouts getting in the front seat.
"Hey, you should've warned me! I would've brought gifts for all my favourite people down there!" I shout back.
"So funny, I forgot to laugh." He sighs, I laugh.

As we drove, he had some pretty annoying questions for me.
"Besides being a dumbass, what have you been doing lately? Besides shagging young girls and stealing shit." He says, and I chuckled angrily.
"Not shagging anyone! And stealing shit is my forte." I said.
"Not shagging anyone? Not even Casey Brown?" He says.
"Her parents must've gave her a lot of shit because of you!" He turned around and looked into my eyes, I was petrified thinking of that.
"I wouldn't know now would I?" I said trying to fight back.
"What? so she snapped back into reality, and that's why she's not all yours anymore?" I didn't know it, but I must've shed a tear because of what he said afterwards.
"Aww! Is the little badass white boy gonna cry?" He laughs.
"You know what you can shut the fuck up!" I shout with all my might.
"Hey! you want me to keep you overnight? Because I have the power to do so!" He shouts back.
"I don't care what you do to me.." I lowered my head and sniffled.
"Face up man, she made a good decision." He said, and I could feel myself bursting into tears. I had my own crying fit for the first time since forever, and it honestly felt pretty fucking good to get out instead of breaking shit.
"I don't have any tissues Glantis." He said in a monotone voice while continuing to drive.

Finally making it there, the stuff I stole for something to eat was taken back. I did spend the night in a cell, luckily by myself. Surprisingly, it was my first time actually in a cell. I got out the next day with my dad finding out I was getting probation for six months to a year for pending charges. Who cares anyway, I just have to be extra careful when it comes to doing things like this. Maybe not stealing for a while, but sneaky things. Fuck it! I want Casey! She's all I want! I want to kiss her, hold her and be with her. Not fuck her, just have her by my side. I miss her smell a lot, her aroma is just as beautiful as her heart. But maybe that pig is right? She made the right decision? I don't know, I just know I still need her. Not want, need.

That was it, as soon as I get back to School I am winning her back for good.