The Struggle

Ashton's POV.

When I get home, I put my mum's car in the garage and hang up her keys. Once I go inside, I go get food and head upstairs to go onto the computer.

"How was the dance?" my mum asks me.

"Nothing happened." I tell her, avoiding the fact that a fight broke out and how Luke cussed me out.

"But did you have a good time?" She questions. She just won't let up tonight.

"Sure." I say to make her stop asking questions.

Once she leaves me alone, I bring my plate down stairs and go to play my drums.

Sydney's POV.

The next morning I feel much better and refreshed. I should probably contact Luke today and see what we are. I just can't believe that he would cheat on me! I remember the day we met, he was so sweet to me.

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Sophomore Year

As I walked up to the bulletin board to see if I made the cut, I was so nervous. I scanned the list and did'nt see my name. I look at the list three more times to make sure that I didn't miss my name. As I turn around, I finally except the fact that I did'n't make the cheer leading squad.

"Anyone need a shoulder to cry on!?" asks the tall blonde boy with piercing blue eyes.

"hahahahaha" I laugh at him.

"I'm assuming that you did'nt make the team."

"Yeah, I did'nt even make the freshman team, so I must be pretty bad."

"Ehh it's their loss. They needed some less attractive girls anyway..you would outshine them all."

"Are you saying I'm attractive?"

"Maybe...do you maybe want to go out sometime or something? If not, don't feel pressured..I was just wondering."

"Yeah, I'll go out with you."

"Really?"

"Mhm hah."

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It was simple then. Luke and me, no one else. We were inseparable. He was my world and I was his. We still were each other's world until last night. But that's the past and I can bring that back so I might as well focus on now and see if Luke and I can attempt to fix our now broken relationship.

Later that day, I get a text from Luke.

*hey, my parents are going out tonight. want to come over so we can talk about what went wrong?*

*okay what time?* I text back.

*7:00* he replies back.

Ashton's POV.

When I woke up this morning, I felt weird and disoriented. I lie in bed for about twenty minutes re-playing in my mind what happened last night before I decide to finally get up and move on with the day.

I was so close! I was so close to getting to be with Sydney. Even though it's a short drive from where I found her to her house, I would've taken anything. She looked so disappointed when Luke showed up. She seemed like she was kind of happy to see me, but then again, I'm not smart enough to know what she's thinking according to Luke. I find it odd that his words didn't hurt me in anyway. What hurt me was seeing Sydney so frustrated and embarrassed by him.

I wonder what's going to happen between Sydney and Luke. I know that it's non of my business but I just can't help but wonder. Even if they did break up though, it's not like I could date her anyway, hell, I even said it myself.

Later today I find myself thinking about Sydney again. I mean, I'm always thinking about Sydney,and dreaming about her, but I seem to have been thinking about her a lot more today than usual.

I wonder what she's doing right now?

Sydney's POV.

Once I pull up to Luke's house, I get butterflies in my stomach just like when we had our first date. I get out of my car and approach his front door, counting how many steps I take. I know that it's odd but I'm nervous and need to occupy my brain by thinking about something else. One. Two. Three. I'm almost at his door and I can feel the butterflies coming back. Four. Five. Six.

Ding Dong.

About ten seconds later, Luke opens the door and I'm greeted by a pearly white smile and dazzling eyes. Two out of many of my favorite features about him.

"Hi" he says to me as he embraces me into his strong, warm arms.

"Hey." I say back nervously. He must be able to tell because seconds later he replies with,

"Stop acting like you're on death row..loosen up a bit..it's just me." As if by saying that is going to calm me down any. "Here, let me take your coat," he says as he goes behind me to assist me in taking it off.

"Thanks." I stiffly reply.

"So, what do you want to do?"

"I don't know.. I suppose we should talk about what happened and take it from there." I suggest.

"Okay." Luke says back and leads me into the den.

"So.." he says, seeming a bit uncomfortable.

"So..Uhmm I just have some questions." I say timidly.

"Okay, shoot." he fires back.

"Why? Why would you go and kiss another girl while you're dating me? You know how much I love you and you must have known while you were doing what you did how badly it would hurt me so why, Luke? And don't hand me that 'I'm just starting with another girl because we're bound to breakup at some point' bullshit. Was I not giving you enough or something like that? Cause I can give you more affection if that's the case but tell me why so we can try and fix this. Because I love you and I know that you love me and that you would never try and hurt me but it seems like you didn't even care about my feelings if I found out." After saying that, I feel so much relief but that relief is quickly replaced with worry as I feel a weight on my shoulders wondering what his response will be.

"To be honest with you, I seriously have no idea why I kissed her. It wasn't because you weren't being affectionate enough with me, I just honestly have no clue. She.. She was just there and she came over and started getting real close to me and it..it just sort of happened. I was in a moment of weakness I guess. And believe me Sydney, I know that's not an excuse but I have nothing better to say for why I did it. And I love you and I want to work through this just as bad as you do I just need help I guess."

"Need help? Luke, we're in a relationship, you're not supposed to 'need help' with not wanting to cheat on me. It's supposed to be you and me..no one else."

"Yeah.. I know." He quietly replies in a shameful voice. "I love you..just remember that.'' he says to me while making direct eye contact.

"I know.. I love you" I say to him as I crawl across the couch and into his arms.

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I don't know how much time has passed since I fell asleep in Luke's arms but I do know that it's late and that I should probably get going. As I wiggle out of Luke's arms being careful not to wake him, I hear a buzz noise coming from his phone next to him. I've always been against rummaging through his phone but before I know it, I'm over at his phone and the message that I see instantly brings tears to my eyes.

(Hi loves! I hope that you guys like this chapter it's one of my favorites so far! I just want to say again sorry if I switch between verb tense often because I find myself doing that quite a bit. Also, thank you to anyone who's reading my story it means so much to me! I hope you guys enjoy reading it just as much as I enjoy writing it :)/