The Struggle

Sydney's POV.

The car that pulls up behind Ashton's is way too familiar and the figure who steps out I could tell who it is even without the streetlight across the street.

"C'mon get in the car." Luke demands as he walks over to me and grabs my arm to direct me to his car. "Irwin?!! What the fuck are you doing here with my girl?!"

"He came here to offer me a ride home." I confidently state before Ashton can say anything while choosing to ignore the statement about me still being "his girl".

"What the fuck makes you think that you're good enough for my Sydney!? You stay the fuck away from her or I swear to fuck-"

'Enough!" I say. I can't bare to listen to Luke slurring to Ashton like that anymore.

"No! He needs to know that he'll never be good enough, never be smart enough, never be attractive enough, never be able to even think about taking you from me cause-"

"Luke!" I scream. "You came here to pick me up right?! Go get in the car." And with that he turns on his heel and walks over to his car.

''I'm so sorry about him....words seriously can't describe-"

''It's fine.. I'm used to it" he says with a slight smile as my heart shatters into trillions of pieces.

''No it's not he can't just talk to you that way. You did nothing wrong and-"

"Sydney, we both know that he's never going to see it that way so you can stop apologizing for all his faults and move on with your life.. Believe me, I know that there can never be anything between us." He says and drives away, leaving me speechless.

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During the car ride with Luke, I can't stop thinking about what Ashton said to me.

''Believe me, I know that there can never be anything between us." What does that even mean? Does he like me? Does he think that I like him in that kind of way? Do I like him in that kind of way? No, I don't like him that way. I mean, yeah he's extremely attractive and I have caught myself staring at him a few times and dreaming of his captivating eyes, but no, I've never thought of him in a romantic kind of way.

"Sydney are you even listening to me?"

"What?"

"I was saying that he better stay the hell away from you. I don't know whats going on in that fucked up mind of his but he better figure out that he can't be near you!"

"Luke, can I ask you something?" I question and he nods his head. "Why do you feel so threatened by Ashton?"

"You think I feel threatened by Ashton? I have no reason to be threatened by Ashton! He's nothing to me!"

"It seems like you do though.. I mean every time you're near him you shoot him a death glare, anytime he talks to me you cuss him out..It's pretty obvious that you have something against him."

"Even if I do feel threatened by him, which I don't, what's it to you?"

"Because I care about you-"

"Bullshit! You don't care about me! If you did then you wouldn't have left me at the dance!"

"You're trying to say that I left you at the dance because I don't care about you!!? I left you because it looked like you found a new girlfriend!"

"Oh so we're back to there!"

"Luke we can't just act like it never happened. Either we can work through this or we can both go our separate ways."

"Urggg you're making no sense. Why does it matter if I kissed another girl? We were bound to break up at some point so why not just start with another girl? It makes perfect sense!"

"You're really fucked up you know that, Luke!"

"Oh well."

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Finally we're on my street and I can't get out of the car and into my house fast enough. Once I'm inside, I go upstairs and change out of my dress and take off my makeup and go to sleep hoping that tomorrow will be less chaotic than today.