The Struggle

Sydney's POV.

"Okay and remember, if you feel any type of pain at all, don't hesitate to call!" the nurse tells Ashton as his mom, him and me walk out of his room. I'm so happy that his ribs have finally healed and that he can return home and get back to normal. Well, as normal as his life can get considering how he is treated but beside that, I'm happy that he can finally get his life back to normal. The bruises on his face are also almost gone and now he just has a few yellowish patches. Although there is still something that is withering away at his mom and my mind.
The seizure. Ashton's father still hasn't called Ann back yet after a week and a half. What bothers me most about it is how hurt Ashton is about it. I mean yeah, I'm extremely worried about Ashton's seizure and want to get to the bottom of the problem, but I can tell that Ashton is upset with his father about how he is treating Ann.
"Okay, thank you." Ashton says with a smile as he picks up his duffle bag.
"And best of luck with feeling your best soon!" The nurse says.
"Thank you for everything!!" Ashton says as he and the nurse exchange a quick hug and Ann thanks the nurse a few more times and we on our way to the car.
Once we get to the car Ann says that she needs the car so that she can get to her work so Ashton and I decide to take a walk around outside.
"Where should we walk?" I ask Ashton as we grab each other's hands.
"Want to walk to the park?" he asks.
"Yeah!" I say in agreement.
The walk to the park is fairly peaceful. Ashton and I hold hands as we walk and occasionally share kisses while we wait to cross the road. When we get to the park, we find a bench to sit at that over looks a pond with two swans swimming together in it. Ashton and I observe the two swans. If one of them swims in front of the other, he'll wait for his mate. We watch them for a bit longer.
"I wonder if they're a couple." Ashton states as the swans intertwine their necks.
"You know, once a swan finds their mate they stay together for the rest of their lives." I tell Ashton as I stare up at him.
"If only people were the same way." He says while looking down at his lap. It takes me a moment to figure out that he's referring to his parents and once I figure it out, I feel like complete shit.
"Oh my gosh! Ashton I'm so sorry! I didn't mean to-"
"Yeah, I know it's okay." He says with a non-convincing smile.
"No, it's not. I'm really sorry. I didn't mean to make you think of your parents." I say as I turn so that I'm facing him.
"Yeah I know. Don't worry about it, Syd, it's okay." He says a bit more convincing this time. "C'mere." Ashton says as he opens up his arms for me to lean into. Once I get into his arms, he tightly wraps them around me as if he feels like some one is going to come and take me away from him.
"It's okay. I'm right here." I say to him as he plants a kiss on my head.
"I'm just so mad." Ashton says all of a sudden. "I don't know why he can't just take five minutes out of his day to make a stupid fucking phone call! I mean, my mum hasn't called him since we've arrived in America so common sense should tell the man that what ever she's calling him about must be serious! I'm just sick and tired of the way she's been treated in her life!! She didn't have the best childhood so then who does she end up marrying!? Some jackass who treats her even worse than she was treated when she was growing up. I mean even I treat her like shit and I treat her the best out of everyone she comes in contact with!"
"That's not true Ashton! You do not treat your mom like shit! You don't know how obvious you make it that you love her unconditionally! I've never seen anyone treat someone else as nicely as you treat everyone else, Ashton!"
"How do you know?"
"Trust me, I just do."
"I just feel like such a burden to her though. I mean, she hardly makes enough money to support us. I just feel like if I didn't exist that it would be so much easier on her!"
"Don't say that Ashton! Don't even think about what it would be like if you didn't exist!"
"Why?"
"Because I don't want to exist if you don't exist. I know that I was fine before you entered my life but I can't imagine it without you now." I can't believe Ashton would even think about saying that. I mean I know that he isn't the happiest person in the world and that he could definitely be treated better but I never knew or assumed that thoughts like that crossed his mind.
"Really?" Ashton asks me.
"Yes, really. I need you babe." I say to him, "And I don't want you to think that way." I say to him.
"Okay, I'll try my love." He says to me and kisses my head. "I love you, Syd." he says to me.
"I love you, Ash." I say back to him.
We stay at the park a while longer and watch the swans before we then leave and go to get food.
There's a street near we are that has tons of food trucks so we go to one of those to get food. We choose a sandwich truck to get food from.
"Hi Ashton what can I get you? Wait, Ashton? What are you doing here?" asks a tall tan boy with dark brown hair and blonde highlights.
"Hi Calum and I just got out of the hospital that's why I'm here."
"Oh okay... Hi Sydney." Calum cheekily says, to me.
"Hi..Calum" I say back to him.
"So Ashton how'd you end up in the hospital?" Calum questions.
"Long story short, Luke happened." Ashton says to Calum
"Oh that was you!? Everyone's been talking about what happened at school but I didn't know it was you that it happened to." Calum says.
"Yeah, it was me hah." Ashton says with a bit of a laugh.
"What was the damage?"
"A few broken ribs and some bruises." Ashton informs Calum.
"Oh, okay well good luck on getting better!" Calum says.
"Thanks."
"So, what can I get you?" Calum asks Ashton and me. We tell him what we wanted, get our food, and go back to the park to eat our food.
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"So," Ashton says between bites of turkey, tomato and bread, "everyone's been talking about it." Ashton sadly says.
"Awh, Ash, don't worry about it babe it'll blow over soon enough."
"I'm just sick and tired of always being their rag doll." Ashton says as a tear escapes his eye. I then get up from where I'm sitting and wiggle in between his things and sit on his lap.
"Hey.." I say to him as I tilt his head up and wipe his tears away with my thumb. "Don't believe what they say about you babe, okay. Non of it's true. I don't support how they treat how they treat you at all and if I could take your place, believe me I would, but knowing Luke, he had to have some one to beat up in order to make himself feel better. He just happened to choose you." I say to Ashton. It seems like ever since Ashton was admitted into the hospital he's been really down on himself.
"I guess." Ashton sadly says.
"Hey, how 'bout we go out tonight or something. I mean, we still need to have our first official date, don't we?"
"Yeah, I suppose we do." Ashton says with a boyish smile.
"I love you." I say to him.
"I love you, Syd." he says to me as I rest my head on his shoulder. "So, so much."

{Hi loves! Sorry it took me so long to update but oh well. So yeah, writing this chapter and describing Ashton seriously made me so sad lol but yeah......there's possibly going to be some interesting Sashton stuff going on next chapter..possibly it depends on how what I'm planning on writing about plays out but yeah!! I love you guys and I hope you like the story<3}