A CRIMINAL Is In Love With Me

Great. Just great.

I wasn't ready for a life of blood shed. I don't think any 23 year old girl would be...

If i knew love could get in the way of surviving I would of never smiled at him from afar...I would of stayed away...

But everyone knows...I would of still ran back to him anyways.

I would run back in his arms I know I would. And it hurts knowing I can't NOT run back to him.

I locked myself in my room Ignoring the knocks coming from outside. I just stared, Stared out the window recalling every memory of him. Of Jazmine, Zara, Marquis, Jason. Baby Sincere, All the laughs and the cries and the worries. I laughed at a thought.

Ace buried over 1000 bodies.

Someone would sent me to a home if they heard my thought and that I was laughing at it most of all.

My knees to my chest and my face numb with sheds of tears that I didn't bother wiping away.

Suddenly my stomach turned and I rushed out the door and ran to the bathroom bending over the toilet bowl. I poured out what wanted to come out and felt someone scoop my hair up and rub circles on my back. 

"Shh let it out i'm right here."

I wasn't throwing up no more but his words made me cry once again. Here I am crying over Ace when I have a family here... 

"I can't do this." I sobbed. "It hurts I-"

"shh." 

I knew his voice. Of course I did he is my brother. Carter turned me around and hugged me squeezing me tightly.

"God I missed you!"

I burst into tears and The door flew open Brian and Alex rushing in as well.

"Are you ok? Are you hurt?" Alex fell to the ground and both joined in on the hug as I cried and cried until I grew to tired to cry anymore.

***

I rolled my eyes. "This is just utterly weird."

They shoved the white bag in my chest once more not even flinching as I glared at them. "You guys are being ridiculous it was a one time thing!"

"One time thing or it happened once Dawn! Samantha said-"

"She might be pregnant but she can't possibly be so sure and draw to such huge conclusions after two days of throwing up."

"Do you hear yourself?" Carter rolled his eyes. "Just pee on the damn stick You stubborn women! Or ill make you pee on it myself."

"I'll like to see you try!"

***

I sat on the toilet holding the damn Clearblue stick in my hand. This is stupid. I am not pregnant.

But my mind of course ran to the worse. What if I am? Would Ace take me back then? Would he realize his mistake of pushing me away and-

What am I thinking? 

I stared at the stick that holds the information to my whole future. Who knew a stick a mother fudging stick held your path.

held your..

And I'm pregnant. Great. Just great.

I'm holding the next leader of the mother fing Italian Mafia!

I dropped the stick and rested my face in my hands. Someone knocked and Michael came in.

"So...Are you a mommy?"

"Guess so."

"Wait for real? Its Ace right?" I looked at him like he lost it and he shrugged. "hey that place is full of guys maybe you-"

"Get the fuck out."

"Women and there pregnancies hormones." He mumbled walking out....

When he closed the door I couldn't think but....

"Am I ready for this?"