A CRIMINAL Is In Love With Me

Darkness

All I saw was darkness. Dark on the left, dark on the right, dark up and dark down.

It made me feel small. Like I was in a room where sooner or later I won't be able to breathe. I couldn't see and it scared me more than I could admit.

I had no memory of how nor why I could see the dark and only the dark. But I could hear.

I could hear breathing. Beeping. Movement. Shifting. Someone touching my skin, my hand. Wetness on my lips and whispers in my ears.

Ace.

He was there yet I couldn't see him. I could feel him touching me yet I couldn't touch back.

Am I dead?

Then it hit me like a bolt. I got shot. 3 times. My body felt numb yet I could imagine the pain.

"Hello, dawn. I see your still making no process." A unrecognizable voice spoke. It wasn't masculine so I knew it was a female. Where am I?

"I'm just going to give one little...There all better eh?" What did she do?

I heard the footsteps sounds going distant and I had a feeling she left.

I wanted to scream. I felt like I was trapped in a box and I couldn't get out. I wanted to bang on something but I couldn't.

As I looked down I saw I was standing on something. Something wet. Something like water.

I could see my reflection clearly but the room was dark. 

"Help me!" I cried out hoping someone could hear me. "Anyone? please!"

Nothing. I felt nothing, I could see nothing.

What happened to my baby? Ace? Everyone?

Shit! I need to wake up! Evernold has my baby!

I fell onto my knees, the water splashing but I felt nothing from it. I didn't even feel soaked. I felt dry. I was dry. I am dry.

Tears rolled down my face and I couldn't breathe. I took deep heavy breathes but nothing seemed to be working.

"Someone help me!"

I banged my fist onto the water and suddenly I fell in. 

**

Ugh. My head. I groaned sitting up and my eyes squinted at the sudden light shining bright on me. 

"Hello darling. My how big you've grown." I gasped looking over to the side. A lady skin white as milk and hair red as fire. Her smile was warm and welcoming yet she looked and felt familiar. She wore all white, with white roses surrounded her head like a crown. Then it hit me.

I stepped back, my hands shaking a bit. The lady frowned and stood up, walking over white pedals.

"Dawn? Why on earth are you walking away?" She smiled and stretched out her hands for me. "Come, please sit down. Have some tea?"

I shook my head but sat down staring at her like she was a ghost. "Don't stare at me like that its creepy!"

"Ya think." 

"Your not dead if that's what your thinking." She took a sip from her white tea-cup. "At least not yet."

I stared at her in bewilderment. "Excuse me?"

"It is your choice sweetheart. I have nothing against it. But you have sinned terribly."

I scoffed. "And you haven't?" I looked around. "I know were not in.... heaven. You never believed in religious!"

"And who said that?" She asked, not looking bothered from my outburst. "You barely knew nothing about me child as you always pulled back. Acting as if I was nothing but a stranger to you. Your father didn't make the situation any better after my death, Drinking. smoking. Leaving his kids at home. I seen everything and he deserved what he has gotten. Especially About Evernold." She sighed. "You see child, once someone dies, you know every little secret big or small, a white lie or a red lie. You know it all. You can never hide from loved ones. The truth always comes out. Sooner or later."

She set her cup down on the little table that appeared out of no where. "Why am I here?"

"You can't wake up because your stuck in between two worlds. The death world and the living." She clasped her hands together. "You see, Its like this. Your soul is dying and its living and everyone knows it wont' last and one of them will weigh the other. But the thing is, owner of the soul has to decided what he or she wants. But your stuck. Something is keeping you here and only you could know. What is it?"

I gulped, playing with my fingers. "I-I don't know." I shook my head. "This is ridiculous. I have no reason to stay ...stay in a god damn coma! I want to see my son!"

"Ah yes, your son, my grandson. He is the seed of someone very sinful I see." She smiled. "But you love him don't you. You love the father and your child very much that you was able to pull a gun out to the one you love just for the safety of your child. You choose your child over your lover. Do you regret that?"

"N-no! I mean...If I had killed him yes! but I wouldn't ...I couldn't."

Its true. Despite Everything, I would choose Allaric over Ace anytime! I cant say its the bond of a mother and her child but its just the love I have for Allaric. And I need to get back to the ... living world and make sure he's safe. That he doesn't join this sickening world!

"But that's not keeping you back is it." I shook my head. "Is it the death of your father? Ace killing him?"

I gasped and stared at her. "what?" I shook my head. "Ace would of told me if he killed Ethan."

"Dad."

"Ethan. He is never a dad to me." I shook my head. "Even if Ace killed him I wouldn't care."

"Child should always honor thy mother and father."

I rolled my eyes. But then my gaze softened. "I can't ever love that men. He blamed me. He made me depressed, scared. Made me think my family was against me for k-killing you. and I did, I admit that but no child deserves to feel that way. Allaric might grow up thinking he killed me when he finds out im dead because I choose him over Ace.  I would never want that for my child. No child."

"And is that what's keeping you back? Me?"

I stared at the lady before me. Tears rolled down my face as she stood up and held my hands. "Darling your right. No mother would want that for any child. not even her own. But you have to see, sometimes not every mother and daughter feels the connection of love straight away."

"I hated you for not loving me like you loved the boys." I sobbed. "Even if I pushed you away, I still wanted your love. I had no one on my side! My twin died or so I thought and look what happened to him! I hate dad and I am glad he is dead but ..."

Her face wiped my cheeks. "I love you dawn and I always will. Your my little white rose and forever you will be. I am watching over you. Pray at night and say thanks too god for giving you another opportunity... I see he has given you more than one."

And with that she kissed my cheeks and pushed me. I screamed, falling into the water again and seeing the darkness surround me once again.

And I never even got to say it back. "I love you too mother."