A CRIMINAL Is In Love With Me

"Um welcome to Local Diner, what would you like to order?"

Hearing her talk about a lifetime I have no fucking memories of, between us too made me feel emotions I never felt before.

Anger. Sadness. Pain. Want.

Am I really a father? Marquis is dead? What the fuck happened?

My head was hurting rapidly and it couldn't stop. I gulped down the pain killers and realized Jason was still in the room. Jason Mitchell. My bestfriend since 13. 

"Your lying."

"Excuse me?"

"You have to remember something Ace. You have too, the way you were with her, you was a totally different person. You told me how you felt you-"

"Stop alright?! I don't know her. She isn't my wife and that baby probably isn't even mines."

"You killed your father for her."

I was surprised I did that. He's dead? Finally. He deserves it, after killing my mother and raping my sister. "Good. But I am sure I didn't do that for her."

"You did."

He sighed and exited the room leaving me with my thoughts.

I groaned and dragged my face. 

*

Its been almost a month. The doctors cleared Ace to come home. The mafia was relieved to see there boss walk through the double grey doors with dark shades on and a slight limp in his step.

He refused to talk to me, nor has he seen Allaric yet. It broken me even more, too see him ignoring a part of his life. He either locked himself up in his Office or buried himself in the gym downstairs.

I no longer had the ring on my fingers. It looked out of place on my hands, when he barley even proposed to me. I was debating on whether to put it in my draws or around my neck.

I peeked over at Allaric to see him sleeping in his crib. I touched his cheek and walked away, into the bathroom. I felt cold, and sticky. I put the temperature on hot and stripped off my clothes, entering the shower. I let the steaming water run over my body, that was shattered. I felt empty inside. He doesn't remember me. The part of his life that contains me in it, disappeared into thin air.

My knees pressed against my chin as I cried.

Do I let him go? Do I run away again? I've been running ever since I met him. He is so complicated it makes my head pound. He ruined me yet I keep coming back. I feel weak, yet I promised myself to be strong. I said I won't let Allaric have a blood shed life. I said that.

But everything I say always get's taken back doesn't it?

Let him go or fight for him?

....... 

"Us being together? Is it safe?"

"You said-"

"I know what I said Ace..." She starting playing with the button on my black shirt.

"But if being together could harm the gang or even you...what would happen?"

I sighed. "I don't know. But I do know I love you."

Her eyes widen a bit before I saw tears in them. "I don't even know you."

"I don't care. You don't see me as a monster. I haven't killed my dad yet so that's a bonus." I gave a hard chuckle. "You make me nervous and worried and even scared once you leave the doors. I never felt those emotions before in my life since my mothers death Dawn. I know what I done to you in the past can't be taken back but i could make it better. I could make your life better just like you done to mines. You brought me out of my dark world and I am being selfish right now but if it means me seeing light once more i'll take it." I kissed her forehead. "I'll always take it."

.......

I'll fight for him.

*

"Boss? It's Jason."

I glanced at the closed doors and sighed. I set aside my glass of vodka and ran a hands through my hair. "Come in."

Jason opened the door and he closed it. "What?" I asked, staring at him as he made his way over to the couch across from my Desk.

"We got a hit from Mr. Salancho. We found him and he is by the Diner."

I nodded and stood up. I asked Jason to Locate The man who owes me money. I wanted it back and I get what I want. 

But secretly, I wanted to try and remember. Remember how i met her.

We left the room and headed downstairs. Trance and Ansel followed behind me and we got into the Car.

As Jason drove, I thought about a few things.

Dawn Thorn. That's her name. Green eyes, fire red hair. Freckled face and 5'3 personality. You could tell she had a baby. You could still see the belly fat. Yet she still looked beautiful.

I haven't seen nor touched Allaric since I was cleared from the hospital. I have dreams or Nightmares, which ever to call it about a few things. But it always disappeared. One thing I dreamt of was what I assumed was the night we made love. The dream constantly came back. But the only difference is that she left me. The night before, I had a dream of her holding a gun to my face....

"Jason..."

"Hm?"

"Tell me about Dawn."

He looked at me shocked but then coughed. "Uh, what do you want to know boss?"

"What was she like. Did I really throw her away?"

He sighed. "Your father came and threatened you after...You know, yall made love or what not. You sent her away back to her brothers and you had to marry Rebecca."

I nodded... "What else? How did she came here if I sent her away?"

"Well, Evernold..." My teeth clenched. "He kidnapped your son and after 2 days, I suppose he reached out and contacted Dawn. The only way to get her son back was to kill you. She contacted me somehow and told me he had her but in Italian.

"She then broke the Oath and screamed to the world what she was and who I was. I lost her after she ran from me and we went on the look out for her after you ordered it. That's how you killed your dad and found out she had a son. But you didn't know if it was yours or not.

"Skip ahead, You  had a dealing with the Japanese Mafia and Dawn showed up, pointing a gun at you."

"Did she pull the trigger?"

"No, Someone pulled the trigger on her."

Jason pulled up at the diner and I didn't questioned him anymore. Was she really ever going to pull the trigger on me? If we really did love each other would she have done that?

I remembered how she said if the time has come for me too choose between her and Allaric, she would of wanted me too choose Allaric. Would I?

We stepped into the diner, that was filled with people. A few people glanced out way and watched us as we made our way to a booth.

I sat on the edge, searching for Mr. Salancho.

"You sure he is here?" I asked. The place was making my head pound.

Jason nodded and cleared his throat, Glancing at Ansel and Trance. "Yeah, I'm sure."

I looked at the suspiciously and found my self waiting. "What are we waiting for?" Ansel was looking down and Trance was chewing on his lip. Jason was playing with his fingers and I grew annoyed.

"I asked a-"

"Um Welcome to Local Diner, What would you like to Order?"

My head snapped towards the direction of the voice and standing in front of me was her.

Dawn Thorn.